So….. Recently I found out about androgyny and how you are both male and female or neither at the same time…. Kind of made my mind flip with excitement when I did too. Basically, I’ve always felt different, I never fit in with girls and never fit in with boys either …, I still kind of don’t fit in anywhere. I have memories from my childhood where I wanted to pee standing up like guys but nothing much else that would classify me as really being male. Hell, I’m not even sure what I am now. For the last 6 years or so I’ve gone through bits where I thought I may be completely male or completely female but then I’ll feel… weird, like I'd be making a mistake if I picked one.I mean I’ve never really cared about what I have downstairs but then when I get my monthly’s it just feels… wrong or off or something. Its what’s upstairs that bugs me most of all though. I only really started noticing my chest when they were big enough to classify me as a girl and not a flat chested child. The first time I binded was maybe 14, granted it was with cling wrap and I ended up with a rash but I liked myself a lot more when my chest was flat , not like small boobs flat, Like Boy flat. I didn't do it again for awhile but never really liked the fact I had boobs , downstairs I can sort of live with but upstairs just feels like it shouldn't really be there. Like if someone told me I had to get them cut off because of a breast cancer scare I’d jump at that faster than most people and be fine with a totally flat chest. .... I want what guys have upstairs but am unsure about downstairs, I ended up buying a few binders but they were cheap and always left a little bulge ,and I was always aware my boobs were just THERE.... I mean my boobs are just in the way , I think I only like them when I get dressed up to go out but only because they complete the look of normal everyday girl,... but could that just be my family talking?? They want me to be a normal every day girl who acts just like any girl would ...but sometimes I want to dress up...But I want to look more like a boy dressing up as a girl then a girl just dressing up girly-er....does this make any sense?? I’ve found out about an androgynous model and the first thought I had when I saw him was that, that is what I want to look like, more than anything, I think I would like it a lot more if people assumed I was something other than female. So thing is does this sound like I'm androgynous or like something else? …. Can anyone help me figure this out? Is there anyone out there like this???