I feel so god damned confused right now. I've spent about 4 years questioning my gender and now all of a sudden I hardly feel anything. I've been feeling refreshed after spending the holidays with my family, as well as being more active in getting my life together than I ever remember. How is it that after years of all of this anxious questioning of both current and past feelings, I don't feel anything? How is it that all of a sudden I just don't feel this way anymore? Is there a chance I'm suppressing this again? Did I really just convince myself I'm transgender?