hello, im new to the site and i've had a question on my mind for quite awhile (more info-dumping than anything, i apologize.) i'm a lesbian (and i have known for a very long time) but, i'm not a fan of female characters and don't find myself to enjoy any kind of female/female pairings, and never really have. i think it's because of how overly sexualized it is (it's pretty much impossible to find non-sexual content for f/f or yuri things - or at that, stuff that is written accurately and not gross. this also ties into my issue with real lesbian porn. it's all too fake and unappealing to me. lesbian content made by real lesbians or nothing.) but, i'm an absolute huuuge fan of male/male, and always have been. i find it a ton more enjoyable, and i even heavily favor male characters and find them attractive (although, the thought of having a romantic/sexual relationship with a man, or finding one attractive in real life is very foreign and sickening tp me.) i honestly can't say i have very many characters i like that are female, but maybe it's because i only find real girls attractive haha. is this relatable to anyone else?
Yes i definitely relate to that!! i don't get excited with girl/girl couples especially if they're both feminine and most of the times it seems fake to me but i love and ship gay men characters!! i think they seem more real to me?? i don't know.. i also really like straight romance because i can relate to guys much more than girls and i can feel what the guy feels for the girl and most of the characters i'm fan of are guys!! because i can get inspired by them.. i'm not crazy about female characters either and i find only real life girls attractive so you're not alone!!
I love a lot of f/f pairings and I always have but what really made me fully question and accept my sexuality was a certain m/m pairing. I was pretty confused about why I loved this couple so much and why it made me want to be with a girl so much. I think it has something to do with how real the relationship felt, the intimacy and the beautifully portraited story that is rather rare for f/f couples in movies and tv shows. Often male gay couples just seem a lot more realistic and actually pretty sexy because they are sexualized in a very different way than lesbians. And from what I've read, many lesbians prefere certain male couples. For me, I just saw a beautiful portrayal of homosexuality and I could relate to it a lot more than most lesbian pairings
So... actually I don't think you're weird at all... I found out last night from my girlfriend that apparently "everyone watches lesbian porn except for actual lesbians"... well... except me ... I know my GF definately seems more comfortable with male/male or male/female... I'm not sure the psychology of any of it BUT I do know that we are all different. And for the record... lesbian porn... yes most of it is garbage, but if you're just really into it then you'll find the sites that are a more realistic and natural looking/feeling. Some of it is actually quite nice. Just saying... as the apparent freak lesbian or actually does enjoy lesbian porn. As I explained to my GF tho, which she was already aware but hadn't put that together yet, I personally am disgusted by the site of male genitalia and that's perhaps my own personal reasoning. I guess that's not actually "the norm"... so don't feel alone. You're not. LoL