I've just had a very profound realisation, although it may sound ridiculously obvious to you. I have been in great distress recently about my orientation. Agonising over whether I was gay, bisexual or straight. I had pretty much ruled out being completely straight. This has caused me great distress. Analysing my attractions to anybody I met, obsessing, testing myself with straight and gay porn, forcing myself to fantasise. All pretty much terribly unhealthy behaviour, not helpful at all.I have come to the realisation that i'm not completely straight and that I am attracted to men. This afternoon it struck me that all of the distress will be alleviated by my fully accepting that I am attracted to men. And all that this means and only what this means. So all of the questions I am agonising about over whether I'm Gay, bisexual or mostly straight aren't that important. I'm attracted to men. I may have sex, relationships etc with a man in the future and be happy. I just need to focus on accepting this part of me. The rest of it will fall into place. For the last 22 years nearly every single day has been clouded over by worrying about this. It has been present at every single social occasion i went to, every time i watched a movie, every time I met a new person, every time i went to the shop to buy milk. It has taken up so much of my energy, thinking and time. It has taken up so much of my life. It has very nearly broken me. It has made me consider killing myself. I'm attracted to men. Thats it. Thats all it is. Everything else will look after itself.