I think my first little hint of a crush on a girl was maybe at 5 or 6? My first real crush was probably around 10th grade.
It sounds like you may be bisexual based on what you've said, perhaps with a preference for women. I say go with the flow, and if you meet a girl...
Hi ghostintheshell! Welcome :) It sounds like you are stuck in a tough spot. It sounds like you care a lot about your boyfriend, but the sexual...