Eat, Pray, Love by Elizabeth Gilbert. Loving it. It's so helpful.
I also identify as genderfluid, though i dress mostly in male attire. I hate my female parts with a passion, but am afraid to go on hormones, let...
I just came out to a close childhood friend. His reaction: that's great! Tell me more when we meet! And I was scared to death thinking he might...
This may sound harsh, but if he's making such threats, he's not really a friend. Try to talk to him about it, maybe he's taking it for a joke....