It says you were full of shame.
If you would have asked me 5 years ago, I would have said, "I'm straight, but...." lol. I think that if we speak in generalities, we could...
I second this advice. I think the more you are around other gay people and interacting with them, the more your internalized homophobia will fade...
My heart just aches for you, and I certainly understand your feelings. Sadly, the only real way out is... well, out. I do want to welcome you to...
Hi Wonkey87, First, welcome to EC! I see from your "Out Status" that you are not out at all. I think one of the reasons your friend is able to...
Hi GonzoBird, Just a few thoughts about your post. Can you describe more fully the "feelings of being gay"? Does this involve crushes on guys?...
I think the step you are on is acknowledgement, or "coming out to one's self". This sounds like where you may be at. This step involves the...
I don't know if you are able to stream Discovery+, but there are a ton of paranormal shows on there. I've been watching Portals to Hell,...
When I was 11 years old, I gave oral to my best friend, and we participated in mutual masturbation together. At age 12, that same friend, and...
This should tell you something. If you have to force yourself in order to fantasize about women, and you naturally gravitate towards men during...
I assume you are referring to a strong gag reflex while performing oral sex on a guy? If so, then I think the simple answer is more practice....
I don't know how old your kids are, but I think the sooner you come out to them the better. Your kids can grow up with their mom being gay, and...
Dear Sadness, Watching you torture yourself over and over again is truly disheartening. Please take the advice from @QuietPeace and @Chip and...
Welcome back to EC, and I'm so sorry you're in this grief. I think this grief you feel is another part of this process. You are grieving the...
How do you feel now? Congrats, btw!
I don't watch any porn that includes women, so I don't think it has to do with porn for me. I'm pretty sure it's just an expression of my...
Can you see how these two statements can be related? Perhaps you should consider that your embarrassment and/or shame about your attraction to...
I have often fantasized about being a woman and being able to have sex with men as a woman. So, I think my orientation would change in this regard.
Wow, just moving forward! I certainly know the feeling of just wanting everyone to know. After a time, for me, it was important because having...
Congrats @Lesbee! I know it's such a rollercoaster, such a rush of feelings and emotions. Just take it a day at a time.
