I'm 28 yrs old I feel like my life is over I'm just tired of being around everything affect my life most of the time I wanna cry I want to scream I'll feel like no one cares when I'm gone.
This is not a "I have it worse than you comment.", but imagine being 49 years old, about to be divorced for the second time, freshly out of the closet and navigating that new world and identity, have had two strokes, and two major heart surgeries, not to mention a pacemaker, two kids have left the nest and don't really need me anymore, the other kid may never leave because he is on the autism spectrum, is basically broke, my car needs repairs, and well the list goes on. I have my days of depression and anxiety, and have days where I don't want to get out of bed. Today, I hid under the covers for an hour.My point is that we all have our burdens and struggles. I hate when people use the line about perspective an others having it worse. That's BS. It minimizes our traumas and struggles. My point is basically that you are not alone. You are never alone. If I can deal with all my shit, it is possible for you too.
Moonboy, what has happened to make you think that your life is over? And what has this got to do with a candle?
I don't think no one really cares about me I'll have social anxiety I'm afraid and worried think people would react with me they think I'm off ugly or crazy slow or not good enough I'm still scared of meeting people even in person or online maybe people really don't care if I'm not no longer here I'll never out of this to meet stranger is because I'm strange But I'm not
yes I'm overweight if I lose weight people think I'm eating too much even I lose weight I'll be unhappy about myself I'll think people would never ever get to know me or give me a chance maybe they're loved to judge me about my appearance a lot.
I'm sorry you feel this way, @Moonboy93. Has anyone said anything like this to you, recent or in the distant past? Why do you think no one likes you or ever could? I can commiserate with social anxiety (I know it can be crippling on my worst days), but it seems to me yours is quite bad. Have you tried talking with anyone about this? A trusted family member, or a counselor?
I'll never closed any family member execpt my aunt who's died this year I've heard voices around my head and worried that I'm not good enough for this world I'll live in.
moonboy, my lad. you're 28. what are you on about ? you're a freaking baby. it ain't too late for nothing, there's nothing that's gonna be "forever". you're insecure, you're lonely, you're lost in life. not the most pleasant for sure, but not the most unchangeable either. a lot of people have been there, you ain't lonely in that loneliness. have you considered seeing a therapist ? they might be able to help you figure things out at your own pace.