Somebody please tell me to stop reading homophobic Christian pray the gay away books. I'm already depressed and I know it's not helping. I just can't accept myself. I know it's not a sin but I wish it was because I hate myself so much. I don't want to be a stupid lesbian!
Stop reading homophobic books! I had a hard time accepting myself, thought God must hate me and want to scourge me from the planet. I was some freak- an accident in nature, but that was me believing all the lies. God loves everyone, you can't change your sexual orientation, and anyone who says otherwise is lying or mistaken. There's nothing wrong with being a lesbian I promise, you just need to let that sink in. It will be ok.
It takes mental work for that to sink in, start by pitching those books. And vent here if need be, it will help.
Hi there! As TinyWerewolf mentioned, you are not doing yourself any favours in reading homophobic books or books that make you feel that being lesbian is a sin. It might be worthwhile for you to read literature that affirms that being lesbian or LGBTQ+ is also being part of society and it is absolutely fine to identify as such. Try to find literature that has lesbians who have successfully come out, are living their lives and feel better as a result. I don't think it would matter whether you read non-fiction or fiction as long as it is something where you can see yourself and can say to yourself: 'this is who I a want to be.'
Thank you for the suggestion! I did recently buy an LGBT graphic novel. Maybe I will look for some books as well.