After telling my wife about my experience with a gay man which was a relief but apart from sexual fantasy talk with my wife about my lust for men I never felt totally comfortable with it. It got better when I found a friend was also a crossdresser and although my flirting got nowhere I slowly accepted my sexuality. I'm loyal to my wife but it's okay to like men too.
I have been with s man once. He gave me a bj and did so the next two nights. Now I accept I like men sexualy especially if dressed up.
I will say that's sort of how it began for me, in a way. My transition, I mean. I liked to cross-dress and I've always been attracted to... well, not men, but parts of men. I came to a point of self-discovery where I kind of started to realize some things about why I liked to cross dress. I'm certainly not trying to direct who you are as a person; I believe you're likely very comfortable with yourself if you've come out to your spouse and had these experiences. I'm just saying, if you're exploring, it doesn't hurt to fill in all the blanks. Find what else might be interesting under all the years of routine. Either way, thank you for opening up and welcome! I'm Lydia, by the way, though I think I put that in my signature now... either way, I wanted to introduce myself properly. Hope you hang around and post a bunch! Lots of love and good vibes to you and yours, honey! PS - Sorry if I'm a bit scatter-brained, I'm on a new schedule and still getting used to the new sleeping pattern!
It's good to hear that you're coming to accept it, even if the process has been difficult (as it oftentimes is). I hope it continues to improve for you, and you learn to embrace and accept yourself completely with time.
