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Last chance (HOCD)

Discussion in 'General Support and Advice' started by Obliteratrix47, Nov 20, 2021.

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    ***TRIGGER WARNING: SUICIDE***
    I am scheduled to visit a psychotherapist in December 9. This is my only chance on getting past OCD. If the psychotherapist isn't gonna diagnose me, then might as well suffer longer. I've waited 2 years to get out of this. I don't want to wait any longer. I'd thought of killing myself because OCD was trying to convince me that I was abnormal, but I couldn't because I was scared of doing it and if I had ever done it, it would've devastated my family and friends and I don't really want that. I don't want to have this kind of future.
     
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    If the psychotherapy doesn't work I'd suggest finding another psychotherapist, there are more out there.

    Also one more thing, please don't fight the psychotherapy. I have met people in the past seeing therapists and it's almost like they're willing it not to work, now I'm not saying for one minute that you are but please embrace every drop of the help. You have your friends and family and also people here if you need a shoulder to cry on whether physical or virtual. Please don't think those thoughts, I've had those kind of thoughts before so I get it but think of the future.
     
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    Thank you. I'm just sick and tired of waiting to suffer.
     
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    Same here but we're not like normal people, we're stronger in everyway even if it doesn't seem like it when the mood drops. Normal people wouldn't survive if they went through a fraction of the battles we all here face. Onwards and upwards, keep marching on :hugging:

    Someone needs to be strong, it may as well be you now you go and rock that shit with your head held high :blush:
     
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    Thank you very much, FireFox.
     
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    Dealing with any level of OCD is incredibly difficult, I've been dealing with hypochondria which causes me to have some OCD habits. Like FireFox said, best thing to do is not fight the therapy, even if it feels really uncomfortable.

    Also, results won't happen overnight. As my therapist put it, "it took you months/ years to reach the point you're at now, and it'll take that same level of time to get back to a healthy mindset". So take your time, be patient, you've got this. :slight_smile:
     
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    Thank you very much. :slight_smile: