Lesbian crossdressing as a guy ?

Im AFAB, really into LGBT debates and news especially concerning the awareness of non-binary folks who had been there for years but are slowly getting recognition. I don’t know if I would like to identify with the term non binary or trans . First of all, it seems scary to me and unsettling because I don’t have gender dysphoria. I do love to picture myself as a male and having male features but only at certain times . I’m comfortable in my womanhood but I feel like there is a part of masculinity inside of me that needs to be expressed . I cut my hair short and I feel really good , I love to look feminine while being androgynous , it’s weird. I think I am a woman, whatever the concept of womanhood implies . I’m bisexual and homoromantic. I have very little to no sexual attraction to men, but when it comes to fantasies , I fantasize a lot about having male features , and that whats get me off . I have a cross dressing kink I think? I love to dress up as a guy and feel a kind of sexual desire when I do. When I’m intimate with someone , I love to give pleasure but I’m uncomfortable when someone « takes care » of me . I feel weird for having such contradictory feels ; I know I’m a woman , I love women , but sometimes I feel like I would be more liberated sexually as a man, and I would love to have a penis. However : this fantasy is mostly sexual. I don’t think about my gender that often , if I look hot I look hot and good for me . Im uncomfortable when other people mistake me for a man. I don’t know what that means ! Lol