1. This site uses cookies. By continuing to use this site, you are agreeing to our use of cookies. Learn More.

A new face around

Discussion in 'The Welcome Lounge' started by Buried Alive, Jun 19, 2021.

  1. Buried Alive

    Regular Member

    Joined:
    Jun 19, 2021
    Messages:
    5
    Likes Received:
    0
    Location:
    Middle East
    Gender:
    Male
    Gender Pronoun:
    He
    Sexual Orientation:
    Gay
    Out Status:
    Not out at all
    I'm a 23-year-old Middle Eastern male born somewhere in the Persian Gulf.

    I've been surfacing the internet looking for some sort of forum where I'd feel comfortable chatting about literally everything that's in my head as I'm completely endangered if caught and unable to utter a word about anything that interests me in life. I don't have real-life friends, I don't spend time with my family, and I hardly [if at all] leave the house; pure isolation from the world outside of my bedroom.

    I've always known that I'm homosexual since childhood but kept it a secret and even lied to myself throughout my life unfortunately because I grew up in a strictly conservative Islamic family (extremely homophobic and zealous) and I was ashamed of myself, I eventually got to the point where I embraced my sexuality and decided that I need to leave to survive and thrive in one way or another, possibly through an asylum programme.

    I've suffered constant daily physical and mental abuse from my parents that persist today. Secretly being an atheist, a dissident, and LGBT in a country where such people are executed inhumanely, is absolutely exacerbating and mentally draining, leading me to hardcore paranoia and suicidal tendencies due to lack of opportunities for a safer life away from the possibilities of death.

    I'm interested in gender transition. I have always wished that I was born a female, it troubles me that I was born a male, especially when expected/assumed to be "manly", particularly disturbing. My family has already pre-planned my marriage, which I'm totally against, but I have no choice.

    I'm not great at introductions, I apologise for the long wall of text.
     
  2. HM03

    Full Member

    Joined:
    Aug 2, 2013
    Messages:
    2,623
    Likes Received:
    508
    Location:
    Pergatory
    Gender:
    Male
    Gender Pronoun:
    He
    Sexual Orientation:
    Gay
    Out Status:
    Some people
    Hello and welcome to EC!

    Sorry that the environment is so hostile! It sounds very mentally draining indeed :frowning2:

    Hope you are able to find some support and socialization here on EC. In particular, feel free to check out the sexual orientation and gender identity/expression subforums :slight_smile:
     
  3. quebec

    Moderator Full Member

    Joined:
    Dec 25, 2014
    Messages:
    4,175
    Likes Received:
    2,348
    Location:
    U.S.
    Gender:
    Male
    Gender Pronoun:
    He
    Sexual Orientation:
    Gay
    Out Status:
    Some people
    Buried Alive.....Hello and a great big LGBTQIA+ welcome to Empty Closets! :old_smile: I am so sorry for the situation that you find yourself in. I can only hope that someday you would find a way to leave where you are and go to a country where you could live as the real person that you are without fear. There are a number of sub-forums here on EC...why don't you check them out and then feel free to join in the conversations! You can ask questions in any of the Sub-forums by creating a new thread or by joining in a conversation-thread that is already going. You can also post a message on anyone's Profile Page after you have made at least ten posts yourself. If you have a question that is somewhat private you can always send a Private Message to any Staff Member. Normally Private Messages can only be exchanged between two Full Members, but a PM to a Staff Member is an exception. :old_wink: We are so glad that you have found us here on Empty Closets! :old_big_grin:
    .....David :gay_pride_flag:
     
  4. MistyMorn

    Full Member

    Joined:
    Aug 8, 2019
    Messages:
    114
    Likes Received:
    47
    Location:
    US
    Gender:
    Female
    Gender Pronoun:
    She
    Sexual Orientation:
    Lesbian
    Out Status:
    A few people
    Hi and welcome!

    Wow... I want you to know how sincerely moved I am by your post. You have such unbelievable courage to face this everyday! I do feel you will find some solace here. God my heart goes out to you. Not sure what else I can say other than there are others who understand this and that you are very loved and very worthy of a fulfilling and safe life!
     
  5. Buried Alive

    Regular Member

    Joined:
    Jun 19, 2021
    Messages:
    5
    Likes Received:
    0
    Location:
    Middle East
    Gender:
    Male
    Gender Pronoun:
    He
    Sexual Orientation:
    Gay
    Out Status:
    Not out at all
    Thanks for the warm welcome.
     
  6. Ludo

    Regular Member

    Joined:
    Jun 28, 2021
    Messages:
    26
    Likes Received:
    14
    Location:
    Netherlands
    Gender:
    Other
    Gender Pronoun:
    Other
    Sexual Orientation:
    Other
    Out Status:
    Some people
    Welcome Buried. Sorry to hear about the circumstances you are in. You're a brave person, facing this.
    I hope you'll find some comfort over here !
     
  7. Mirko

    Admin Team Advisor Full Member

    Joined:
    Apr 26, 2008
    Messages:
    18,870
    Likes Received:
    3,203
    Location:
    Northern Hemisphere
    Gender:
    Male
    Gender Pronoun:
    He
    Sexual Orientation:
    Gay
    Out Status:
    Out to everyone
    Hi there and welcome to the community. Hopefully being part of Empty Closets will give you a chance to be yourself, not having to worry about things.