It can’t be hard process initially as you essentially have to rewrite the narrative of your life to incorporate what you now know was actually going on at the time. It takes time, but it does get easier.
For many years while I felt effeminate and wanted to exhibit my true nature however I hid it under uber masculinity. I did all the things expected of a macho male. I hated it but did it. Until finally really examining my life and desires it was quite evident I was pretending. After coming to terms with my same sex attraction I slowly stripped away all that toxic masculinity and embraced that effeminate guy that was hidden for so many years. It felt so liberating, so natural and so comfortable. Many told me I was trying too hard to be gay, when in reality I had trying too hard not to be. Life is indeed a strange ride.
I find my self looking at the opposite sex, why I ask. As of late I figured it out, I'm envious of thier bodys.
This is a reply that I wanted to post somewhere else but the Forum was too old. I just need abs want people to talk to I really don’t have anyone..a while ago I kind of told my mom that I like women and tbh I feel like most of my family probably knows but don’t want to justo to that conclusion: That’s how I feel I just turned 30 at the beginning of May and I said to myself that I want to explore the feelings I know I’ve always had for women. I can’t believe I actually met someone on a dating app that seems normal abs not outright asking fir sexual stuff. I’m also nervous because I’m meeting her for the first time on Friday, I have a lot of anxiety about these things and just meeting new people in general. Since I turned 30 I’ve really been trying to get out of my comfort zone and do some of the things I was too scared or nervous to do in my 20s or even my teens. I missed out on so many things and I have only myself to blame.
My advice, just live your life, as time goes on they will learn to accept you for you. Some accept right away and some it takes them much longer. Anyway how was the date? You can always talk to me. Lol
I know that the last two posts are not perfectly in alignment with the purpose of this thread but I feel that I need to chime in on this point here. "just live your life" is perfect advice but it should be done without expectations. I wish that people would be more careful about stating that eventually parents come around. This might be true for some peoples parents but it is not always true. My mother died nearly 30 years after I came out having never accepted me. I wish that I had stopped hoping that she would accept me.
It is difficult to stop hoping loved ones will come around. I experienced the same as I was never able to reestablish a real relationship with my mother before she passed and my sister forget it. I might as well told her I was some pagan pervert. She just couldn’t accept me. Born agains are almost impossible to reason with. I am sad but I have moved on. It’s not easy but it is necessary.
Lol I think I have no luck because she randomly stopped talking to me abs I haven’t heard from her since. That’s why I always think people are either bots or just playing around..this is why I don’t give people my number though haha. Also thanks I could really use someone to talk to or vent to or both.
I’m the same way lol. I know how you feel . What is abs ? You can vent and talk to me. In the beginning it’s hard trust me , as time goes on things will get better it also helps when you have someone you can relate to, to talk to ..
Gosh this thread makes me reflect on the signs I was a lesbian back in School. I had endless crushes on girls despite having a boyfriend whom I was never emotionally attached to. I would have to crushes plastered over my bedroom wall, all women! I think I always really knew but found it hard to admit to myself that I was.