I think I might be gay and I am so scared and confused, but I am not 100 per sure, so I hope with your help to find out If I am gay or not.. Well, I was a normal boy and I liked girls and only girls, but I have been rejected and this somehow affected me and I started to wonder what it will be if I was a girl and I tried to wear girls clothes, bra and thongs (I have a sister), and then I tried to finger my ass too and even f*cked my ass with objects and i liked it.. I was 15 or 16 years old back then and now I am 29. And after all that I started to think and fantasize about s*cking cock and getting f*cked by a man.. I even s*cked cock once, it was a long time ago and the man couldnt get hard, I s*cked his small and soft cock, but I liked it, I liked being on my knees in front of him.. I was 20 years old back then. After that I had other chances to meet with a man, but I always quited before the meeting, because of shame, stress and fear.. Then I met a girl, she was my first and only, we fell inlove, even engaged and lived together for 3 years, but then she found out about my desires for wearing female thongs and for men and their d*cks and she left me for another man.. I was totally broken after that and damaged, but these feelings came back.. Again I wanted to wear thongs, bra, girls clothes and started to fantasize about s*cking cocks and getting f*cked. I think I still like girls, I mean I turn over to them, but it is more like in the way that I am envy of them, I want to wear their clothes, to be like them, thats why I think I may be gay.. So I hope someone can help me to find out what I really am..
Hi and welcome! As far as I know (please someone correct me if I'm wrong), being aroused when crossdressing can either happen or not happen, regardless of whether you're a gay, bi or straight man. So I wouldn't pay that much attention to that as an indicator of sexual orientation. Just to clarify... Do you lose interest in women's clothes when you aren't aroused? Would you feel comfortable sharing whether you think of men or of women when masturbating without porn? If it's both, how does the intensity compare? Can I also ask if you've ever had sex with a woman? How did that feel by comparison with what you did with men? And I know from personal experience that this is easier said than done, but try not to stress too much. There's no rush and you aren't alone!
Hey, thank you for your answer! Well, I dont lose interest in women's clothes when I am not aroused. Even now I am wearing pantiesh ,hehe. I had sex with one woman, my ex fiance and only with her. When I am aroused and I masturbate I thinkg about being like a girl and being with a man, me being in the girl' role..
Just based upon what you wrote, it's certainly clear that you are not straight. The crossdressing is an added element, but by itself is not determinative of anything, as many gay, straight, and bi people like to cross-dress. But your desires regarding sex with men indicate to me that these are real desires, and therefore real sexual attraction to men. Whether or not you have real sexual attraction to women as well can help you determine if you are gay or bisexual. To me, it seems obvious that you can eliminate "straight" from your choices here. Perhaps you could talk a bit more about your attractions to women? Edit: I have just seen your other post about OCD. If you think you might have OCD, then my post may just be irrelevant. Attempting to work on figuring out your sexuality without having OCD under control is simply pointless.
Welcome to EC. I agree that before anything else is considered that the OCD needs to be brought into control. Therapy is a good idea and maybe medications to help it. After the OCD has been worked on then and only then start working on the rest. Wanting to be female is not gay. I am not sure if this might be a language issue or not. If you are only talking about cross dressing and then having sex as a man with another man this could mean that you are bisexual (given that you also state that you still like women liking men would make you bisexual not gay). If you really think that you would like to be a woman then that is a gender identity issue and you can transition to living as a woman. Living in the role of a woman you can still be bisexual or if you were then only interested in men you would be straight. None of these things should be worked on though until after you get the OCD worked on.
