Short hair, gender expression and I'm confused

Hi people..

OK so, I might be confused about my gender. I have a lot of issues and I started questioning my feelings.

I don't even know how to put it. Sometimes I am super ok with being a woman. I feel confident, like my body, long hair, so a normal cis experience.

But then... Sometimes a feeling sneaks in, that I want to cut my hair short, I feel a strong discomfort with my chest and I'd like to dress much more masculine. In that moments I feel comfortable with gender neutral pronouns (in some moments I even feel 100 % like a man)

And then... It just goes away. Wth?? I feel like both is part of who I am, but I'm not sure. I try to figure out if it's internalized misogyny, or body dysmorphia, or temporal (?) dysphoria? Or trauma response. I don't know honestly. It's just that my gender is not so... Fix as I would assume.

I know that no one can hand me a label and tell me, this is you. But maybe... Thoughts?

 

@Andrew7 yes I tried, but I don't feel like a man as a whole. Imagining people calling me sir doesn't feel right at all.

I think a label that might fit me is genderfluid. At times I'm 100%ok with my femininity, at others I experience a weird feeling towards my chest. It ebbs and flows. Also I like to go into a more masc or gnc way of gender expression. And see what that does to my inner feeling. Maybe it's that I don't like to express myself in a overly feminine way any more?

There are more aspects to it... It's gender expression at one point and sometimes an inner feeling of not liking my chest or body as a whole. Don't know if it's dismorphia or dysphoria though. I find it really difficult to distinguish between the two.

Maybe I lean more towards a stud or butchy self expression inside of the female spectrum. I don't know yet. Genderfluid feels ok. Also she and they pronouns