So, I've been questioning my sexuality for a long time. I have known for a few years that I had an attraction to men, but couldn't allow myself to acknowledge it. I was raised in a home that taught that homosexuality was unnatural and wrong. It's been decades since I actually believed that, but the programming was already there. About a year ago, I started regularly looking at pictures and videos of men without feeling guilty afterwards. I was getting comfortable with being turned on by both men and women. But I still wasn't sure what is was. Or maybe I was to afraid to put a label on it. I'm married to a woman who's best friend is lesbian. I should have known what her response would be, but I still felt like it was different because I'm her husband. I was struggling with what to call myself and wanted my wife to know, but didn't know how to bring it up. How do you casually mention to your wife of a decade that you like men, too. Turns out, my wife is a lot more observant than I give her credit for. Three days ago as we were sitting in bed, she turned to me and bluntly asked me, "Are you bisexual?" I froze. I hadn't even put a concrete answer to that question in my own head. My mind raced as I thought about what to say. I couldn't lie to my wife. "I think so." I said, quite nervously. As I said, though, I should have known she'd be ok with it. She hugged me and told me she loved me. I am not ashamed to say that I cried. Tears of joy and relief and love. She had questions that I didn't have all the answers to, but the only answer that really mattered to her was that I loved her and was attracted to her. After her support and love, how could I not.
Omg that's soooo cuteeeee. I stan you guys <3 My boyfriend was the first person I came out to, but I told him about my female crushes before so he wasn't surprised. He said something along the lines of "you were always you, it won't change anything" and I honestly do get emotional whenever I think about that phrase, especially when I'm doubting myself.