Is 'bottom shaming'/ 'sissy shaming' a thing?

Here's the part that nobody understands: He utilized his homosexuality to make my life a living hell. And because of that, I resent it.

 

I'm already in therapy. My therapist is largely silent on the issue. In fact, she clams up whenever I start talking about my sexuality, at least for the most part. I've gotten no helpful discourse on how to properly process my feelings regarding my sexuality. She's good with other things, though, but human sexuality is not her strong point. And before you ask, I can't just "get another therapist." My therapist is basically state-appointed because I'm poor and can't afford anything else.

 

I don't really want another therapist, I like my current therapist. She's done me a world of good in helping me out with a great number of things, but like I said, human sexuality just isn't her specialty. I went to an LGBT-oriented therapist years ago when I still had good health insurance but I didn't listen to much of what he said because I wasn't open to "talk therapy" at the time. I just wanted pills to fix my brain. He did say something to me that rang true, he said for me, just in my case, being gay was a fetish, you know, like a paraphilia? That really resonated with me for some reason. He was also a homosexual and he had a PhD. He's still around, but I can't see him anymore because he doesn't accept government health insurance.

 

Hell yeah to that!

 

I thought the same as well when I was younger, then I came to realize I like the role of a bottom with men but not being effeminate at all, I just like to please and enjoy my partners more than I expect stuff back, if that makes sense. I dont want some guy going all hairy chest and ordering me around, I like a mutual give and take and a kind person with either sex. And no one I ever knewnor met suspected I was gay, the looks on their faces when I come out with it! typical tall regular masculine guy here with a big secret. lol.