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Questioning (Again)

Discussion in 'Sexual Orientation' started by HorizonSea, Oct 31, 2019.

  1. HorizonSea

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    I feel attraction to both male and female, but I think I'm more drawn to emotionally/maybe physically attracted to women. I feel attraction to males, but I don't think I have the same emotional/physical feelings that I have towards women, especially when I look at pictures online. Also, I know relationships are more than sex, but I don't feel comfortable with the idea of having sex with a man.

    Would I have sex with a woman???
    My answer is: I don't know.


    I don't know if that means I'm bicurious, bisexual, or a lesbian.
     
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    I've gone through similar emotions and rode the roller coaster for a long time. I think your sexuality is ever evolving and you should embrace the journey your on.
     
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    I agree with CJ above. I would try to wipe your anxiety and just enjoy the journey of answering your question organically. Those are questions that only you can answer for yourself. You will find your answers in time, in loving yourself, and in meeting others in the queer community. I would just meet others, don’t prescribe a label to yourself, and just be you. Labels are not heavily used these days as much as they once were and you will find more and more people not using a label at all. I’m gay but in my head I’m just me, that’s it. I hardly ever say it aloud. I just happen to love my girlfriend.
    You have your whole life in front of you! Love it! Breathe it! Just enjoy it and your answers will come in time if you invite them.
     
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    I've been fantasizing about women and I want to have a life with a woman.
     
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    I think that pretty much capsulizes it. Certainly sounds like you are a lesbian but only you can answer that question. There is no hurry but relax and see where the path leads you. Those of us who have been down this road will tell you it is very rarely a straight line but more curved with switchbacks and detours. In the end you will find your way to your real sexuality.
     
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  6. HorizonSea

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    I'm overthinking this, but how my body reacts tells me I'm attracted to women.
     
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    It's those little whispers that you need to listen to. It is possible that your mind sees some attraction to males because that is what it has grown up thinking it is supposed to do. It can take a while to unlearn that
     
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    Another question:

    If I'm doing searches online about "Am I a lesbian?", should that be a red flag that I'm a lesbian?
     
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    Well I dont know if you should call it a red flag but I think it would definitely mean there is a strong possibility. I dont think there are many straight girls that google that.
    What is it that makes you doubt you are a lesbian?
     
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    I'm not doubting that much anymore (trying to come to terms with it), but I was wondering if that was a sign that I'm a lesbian?
     
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    Well its good that you are not doubting it as much. Coming to terms with it can be difficult huh. I think it is probably one sign, I am sure there are others too.