Are gay and straight platonic friendships possible?

I'm really starting to get sick of hanging out with straight girls. Even my closest, liberal straight girl friends seem to find a way to make me feel just a little bit gross about being gay. One time I was taking some pictures with one of my friends, and in one of them she pretended like she was kissing me on the cheek, which I know is something that lots of girls do in pictures to be "cute", and it would have been fine, except once she realized what she was doing, she quickly pulled away and said "oh sorry, I forgot I can't do that with you," like her fake kiss was going to make me fall in love with her send me into a full blown gay panic. I mean, she didn't need to remind me that she's straight and I'm not and that she seems to still feel a little weird about that. She tries to ask me if there are any girls I'm seeing and things like that, and I recognize and appreciate that she's trying to be inclusive, but it always feels so forced and it makes me feel soo weird talking to her about that stuff, especially when she freaks out about fake kissing me. And of course, there's the prevailing "predatory lesbian" trope, where straight girls assume that I must be attracted to all of my friends. Over the weekend, one of my friends was talking about her other lesbian friend who asked how one of our friends was doing, and she joked that "maybe she likes her," just for asking such a casual, polite question about a mutual friend. My entire life, I've been very cautious of how I act around my girl friends, because I was afraid that I was gay and that this would make my friends uncomfortable, but now I'm beginning to feel like I literally can't do anything without a straight girl fearing that it means I'm into her. I've just never had a straight girl friend that at some point or another hasn't made me feel wrong about how I feel about other women, and I'm starting to wonder if it's even possible for lesbians and straight girls to have platonic relationships. It seems like it isn't and that makes me feel so sad because it seems like the more I come out of the closet, the more friends I'm going to lose.

 

I’m 23 and all my friends are about the same age. I mean the thing is most of the time there aren’t any issues with my friends being straight, it’s just those rare instances where they make me feel weird that I wonder what they’re really thinking the rest of the time we hang out. I just feel really insecure around them.