Long story but i began hanging out with this guy, hes 18, and he said he didn't want a relationship right now, and he wants to be friends. I began flirting with him while looking at memes on his computer and smoking weed, he suggested i sit on his lap and then when i did he put his head on my back, it was nice. Then he asked me if i wanted to suck his dick which was out of nowhere, i started doing it, and me being a total virgin, did things totally wrong, but there was some hand holding and head rubbing which was nice. It was kind of hot but i was so scared that it really wasnt so much anymore, then he wanted to do mine and it was wierd. It was messy and disorganized and in the end none of us got off after his dad came in, walking in on us, and said that my dad was here. We hugged and I went home. Man I wish i could have done better, or maybe i shouldve said no : ( I wonder if his dad hates me now, or what he thinks, because he knows his son is gay and everything. My friend told me not to worry about it and that his dad wont mind. I kind of doubt that. He did have a really nice dick though. And having that experience is something I thought Id never have. hahaha. I'm not sure how I'm supposed to feel about this. You know?
I think most people's first sexual experience is probably not ideal. Look at it this way -- your first time doing anything was with someone you trust who cares about you, and he didn't freak out over getting caught in the act which would traumatize most people. If your friend thinks it's not a big deal to his father, I don't think there's any reason to doubt him on that. He seems very comfortable with you and emotionally stable -- that's great. Next time just try to make sure you have more privacy, though his family will probably be more hesitant to just barge in now. It may not have been everything you dreamed of, but practice makes perfect.
I think I just made him horny after i started sitting on his lap, but i guess he does also care about me. When I started freaking out over it he said "Wow you really lost your chill haha" and then he said "It's just sex" and I really considered it, it really was "just sex." He also did me but I needed to go piss right in the middle of it so that sucked, but he was ok with it. His dad is a pretty chill guy actually. He's 18 and graduated so his dad doesn't seem to have any authority over what he can or can't do. But I had a pretty small, but good relationship with him beforehand and I'm not sure if I can really face him anymore, but maybe I'm overreacting. Unimportant, but I'm not sure if this makes me a virgin still. And yeah, it wasn't exactly a porn scene lmao. I guess this is kind of a valuable learning experience. If I had to do it again, I'd say yes; I think, but maybe this time with some more caution and preparation, and more knowledge under my belt.
Well, I can see how the combination of a rather unexpected first sexual experience, combined with his dad walking in, has got to be absolutely mortifying. I mean, I agree that realistically, it's "just sex" and a normal and natural thing people do, but society teaches us to have shame surrounding it and being caught, especially by parents. It sounds like he's got a really even head about the whole situation, and that's awesome. And I agree that if he's confident his dad will be chill, that this is likely the case. So I'd just continue on, take things slowly, and see where it leads. As for his dad... it is probably equally mortifying for both of you, so you may be able to basically just compartmentalize that little escapade and go right on with your communication and connection with him.
None of us expected that day to go as it did, we were just hanging out and having fun and then next thing I know I had a dick in my mouth, no kissing though, he didn't want an emotional connection. Yeah, he's brash and rude, but appreciably honest. "absolutely mortifying" is an understatement. And I died inside when he came in, hopped in the my friends bed facedown with my pants still down kind of mortified. Hahaha. I guess I should give his good old dad a little bit more credit than this. "Compartmentalize" you put that extremely well, and I'm starting to calm down a bit. It's something to put on the backburner, or just quietly consider for the rest of eternity while we get to know each other better Hahaha.
I'd suggest to take it as it is. You have a FWB now and you can experience the wonders of sex, be it oral or not. Don't worry about his dad, and although its just sex, there's no need to be worried about doing it wrong, you can talk to him about your inexperience and take things slowly. Hmmm about the kissing part, I'd disagree that a kiss would lead to an emotional connection, as to me it's part of the foreplay. To each his own I guess.
"He didn't want an emotional connection". Sorry but... what a load of crap on his part. The dude is sucking your dick, and you're sucking his. So what is most likely going on is he's just coming to terms with what emotional intimacy looks like in a relationship. Has he been out for a while? Is he just coming out? I mean... different people attach different values to what constitutes emotional connection, but to arbitrarily draw the line at kissing, when dick sucking is fine is... a pretty ridiculous position to hold.
He's told me he's kissed a lot of boys before, he's my first, but im 16 and he's 18 so. But seeing as he's single right now, I'm guessing he never got what he wanted out of it? Maybe its trust issues idk. But he doesn't want to be in any relationship right now, he's told me multiple times and whenever I bring it up he tells me to drop it, pretty rudely, but understandably so, and asks why "Being friends isnt enough?" Before we fooled around and did the things when he asked me if I wanted to suck his dick or not, I hesitated and asked if it was a one time offer, he said yes. So with my heart pumping, high as a kite, paranoid of the unlockable door (he said we could easily hear someone coming) I stared at his face, he turned away, put on his hoodie and said "don't look at me" I don't know why he did that exactly, and while, chubby, he was so beautiful with this rugged ass charm. Honestly, have no idea. I am actually like half a dozen centimetres taller than him and 210 compared to his 180, despite our age, and I was the younger one! I thought that was funny haha, Being a bit sportier than him a lot of the weight is muscle and my biceps xd. (I'm in canada so the age thing isnt a legal problem.) But I still have no idea why he wouldn't want me to look at his face when he was asking me if I wanted to help him out. I did say yes though with a "yeah, sure" and he unzipped and we did the whole shabang. I've had him visibly rub his big ol belly in front of me exposing it from under his big baggy hoodie and damn is it hot, he didn't let me rub it though : (. I have sort of a thing for it, that and abs so I'm pretty flexible. Not that its relevant though haha. I know a lot of unescessary detail, but maybe it helps you understand things better. I'll be sure to pass on your message about kissing to him, like dude, you are gagging on my dick, kissing shouldn't be a problem.
I suspect that he's still at some level struggling with being gay. If he just lets you suck his dick and you his, and no one looks into one another's eyes, he can carry on the masquerade that there's no emotion there; it's just something to do for fun. Of course... that's almost certainly BS. But it's the best he can manage right now. I think the main thing for you is not to put too much into this as he may not be able to give back emotionally, at least for a while. Also... just for the record, the above post is a little over the line in terms of the unnecessarily graphic/borderline salacious commentary. Given that we are a community that serves younger teens, it's fine to be graphic when graphic is necessary to convey what you're discussing, but try and avoid the salacious stuff in the future.
shoot im sorry, too much, I'd bring it down a notch if I could but editing is only within 5 minutes. Thanks for the advice mate. I feel like I'm understanding the situation a little bit more. I want to talk to him about it but I can't bring myself to do it, and he doesn't seem to want to message me after the exchange either, and usually we play terraria, like all the time. Idk, the whole thing is sort of making me anxious but I'm doing my best to assure myself the world isn't ending haha. Really sorry about the unnecessary stuff.
