Is it normal to not like kissing at first?

I'm 23 and in my first serious relationship. It's going wonderfully. I love her and she loves me, and I've enjoyed every moment we've spent together. One thing I don't particularly love, however, is kissing. I don't dislike it. It's nice. She's the first person I've ever kissed. We've had to move very slowly, in the physical aspect of our relationship, because I have some touch and and sensory issues. We were together for two weeks before I felt comfortable enough to even hold her hand. (Luckily, she's pretty much the sweetest person in the world and is nothing but patient and understanding.)

She's let me set the pace in our relationship, since she's super comfortable with physical affection. I worked up the courage to ask if I could kiss her two weeks ago. I liked it. It's stupid, but people always talk about that feeling when you first kiss someone. Spark or whatever. I feel that sometimes when we're together, but never when we kiss.

We've seen each other 5 times since then, and we've kissed at least once every time. Usually, she initiates it. (She always pauses to let me pull away right before she kisses me, or even asks. I've never said no, nor have I wanted to.) We had a really nice moment yesterday, sitting in a gazebo at a park watching birds. We were alone, so I asked to kiss her. Not to sound childish, but I guess we kind of made out. Still chaste and slow and sweet, her hands in mine. Again, I liked it. But mostly just the closeness and not the kissing in particular.

I have no idea how to kiss, and I know I'm timid and clumsy about it. She's assured me that she still enjoys it. But I'm afraid I'm not going to get better at it and she'll get tired of kissing me.

Is it normal to not particularly enjoy kissing at first?

 

Thank you for the reassurance, and the advice. I really appreciate it. We've done great with communication so far. I know I can talk to her about anything, even the uncomfortable stuff.

Thank you. I definitely feel that with her. We go on a lot of outdoor dates, since we both love nature. Since it's been cold, it's become a tradition for us to go to her place afterwards, put some blankets on the floor, and lay down in front of the heater. Those are some of my favorite moments, just being beside her, holding her hand while she falls asleep.

Thank you so much for the advice. Right now, most of my worries come from my lack of experience with relationships. This is only my second one ever. In the past, I've always been able to talk to her about my related concerns/insecurities and she's always willing to listen. I feel reassured that I can talk to her about this if it becomes a problem for me.

I do really like cuddling with her, holding hands while we walk, stroking her hair while she leans against my shoulder, etc. So yeah, even if I wind up not liking kissing that much, it's not like our relationship will stop being affectionate. That makes me feel better.