What are you thinking?

Maybe thinking of taking a shower. Spiders get dirty, too. LOL

 

I'm not sure how this one was so big, but it was pretty large even though they're usually small - must have been super old or something. Most are about the size of a coin, this one was more like a dollar bill. I used to think they didn't jump too, but he managed to pop around from the shower curtain rod, to the wall, and onto the floor pretty easily. I sent a picture of its corpse to a friend of mine who studies spiders in his lab and he said it was still a Brown Recluse though, just a really big one apparently.

 

Me: I'm doing great and slowly becoming more outgoing.

Also me: (passes someone I know on the street unexpectedly) Oh look at that, heh, well I'll just continue to the shops.

Other person: "Hello".

Me: Oh dammit it's happening. "Hello".

Other person: "Are you OK? You seem...scared of me? "

Me: ..."Haha no..." (I'm actually not, I'm not entirely sure why I acted that way).

*Leaves*

Thinking about it later: Well, I could've handled that better, but at least they'll probably forget about this. *Sigh* Well, this is gonna be one of those things that haunts me at 3AM isn't it? Ugh.

 

I have pink eye and it is not fun.

 

What the hell? I looked up a Metal band on YouTube and found this message "In response to user reports, we have disabled some features, such as comments, sharing and suggested videos, because this video contains content that may be inappropriate or offensive to some audiences." It wouldn't even let me play it. I looked up the lyrics for the entire album; standard Black Metal comically "evil" love songs for Satan. I found another video and discovered their music sucks anyway

 

I’m struggling to self-motivate so hard.

 

I'm trying my damndest to stick to a routine which I put on myself. It's just that motivation is lacking.

 

Almost done with the kitchen changes! Fuck I hated that red! Now we are waiting for the cabinets to be stained espresso, paint the walls and BAM! 3 years in the making ☺️☺️

 

Welcome to Kentucky where we get all four seasons in a week!

 

So after months of trying to keep a friendship going, and almost a year total of not talking/hanging out, I get a text. Maybe I'm paranoid/spiteful, I think she wants a favour. Considering some major shit happened in 2018 for me, I can't help but feel like you can't just pick and choose when to be my friend. Grrrr /rant

 

Time to relax.

 

"Oh, I'd actually rather not talk about it"

"Why not?"

*Sigh* If I got into that...sometimes I wish people could just let me leave it at "I'd rather not talk about it". That's not an invitation to ask more questions until I finally talk. If I say this, mostly likely it's the case of I have uncomfortable feelings about this subject, certain emotions that are currently beyond words because I don't know how to explain them to you. Let me work out all the fine tuning of how to present this, because I haven't quite figured it out either.

People sometimes get annoyed at me for not telling them about certain emotions sooner, but feelings can be freaking complicated and take time to work out. I like to report on them after the fact, that way I'm in a clearer state of mind and this leads to less miscommunication. Also, it's not always people's business. Be happy I'm sharing them at all, all right?

 

I took Marie Condo’s advice and cleaned my bedroom. I got rid of so much stuff it’s crazy.

 

-32 last week, +40 this past weekend, -10 at the moment, yep there is no climate change

 

Yesterday I went drunk bowling AND didn't get carded! People are almost always thinking I'm 16, so I'm ecstatic lol

 

My grandmother just died. She was given morphine when she had serious trouble breathing and died shortly after that. We saw it coming for a while. RIP

 

Another day, another dollar.

 

Can I get a container for my ranch?
So I can put in my box?