In the past couple weeks I have realized that I'm no longer in "crisis mode:" not the existentially confused and perennially crying mess I've been for at least the past couple years. While things still aren't perfect in my life or marriage, and I still want to find ways to be more open about my sexuality and support the LGBT community, I have gained a lot of perspective. I am okay with who and where I am right now, whatever the future holds. It feels amazing to look back to my lowest times last year when I genuinely did not want to live, realize that it did get better and feel grateful that I'm still here. I know therapy has helped a ton with my outlook, as well as all the support from you lovely people here. So, thank you for helping me reach this point
Glad you are out of crisis phase. Do you have a goal or plan for the future, or are you taking it day by day as it comes?
@weary taking it day by day for now, anything else feels like a rash decision. I've just reached a place where I'm okay not having all the answers for now. I do know that there's some things I need to say to my husband that I've been holding back, so I will start by finding a good time to do that.
Good for you @LaneyM and continue on your journey of discovery. I know you will get to the place you need to be and keep us updated on how things are.
Keep on moving forwards. Tiny steps. One day at a time. Don't beat yourself up if you have a bad day - you can always start afresh the next day!
My pleasure. I've been there and I continue to be there...this journey is very hard indeed but I'm whole now...
This sounds like I could have written it! I'm also out of crisis mode now and finally feel in control of my life and my emotions. I'm so glad you're feeling better now, and I'm glad this community was here to support.
