I am going through a crisis. I am what I believed Heterosexual but now im still questioning. My family and friends are starting to question whether I have OCD, to an extent even im unsure. Questions started due to a dream at night which when I woke up freaked me out, had no wet dream aspect of it either. When I see good looking guys I get a weird burning sensation but im unsure whether im suppressing my want for a man or its just conditioned anxiety. I am married and the other thing that makes me question is any oral and hadjobs can't make me climax. Ive now got to a stage I frequently visit this site and google things, watch porn, measure my penis constantly if I think im aroused but never am. Test masturbate constantly and find it impossible to cum to guys last time I was successful I was having a mini panic attack and it felt awful and unsure what imagery I had used to get to that point and apparently anxiety can make you cum and it didn't feel good nor was I fully erect. I can't work out if im in denial please help. I tried masturbating to guys nothing happened then got to point of no return thinking about women then gay thoughts intruded on that moment but still finished now im sure that would count as orgasm to guys. Help me please
it seems to me you are bicurious only. if you can "finish" only to thoughts of females highly doubt you qualify as gay by any means. are you able to get erect and finish inside your wife only? burning sensation is most likely feeling for the unknown. only way to solve your problem is to bed a gay dude and see your real feeling come to the surface. thinking about it will solve no problem ever.
Given what was said here and other posts I have seen of yours it doesn't sound like you are gay or even bisexual. It's sounds like you have something else going on and are fixated on this questioning for some reason. If you actually were attracted to the same sex you shouldn't have to try so hard to be aroused and it would feel more natural, which for you it does not seem to be the case at all. I would recommend you look into Sexual Orientation OCD for some guidance.
I don't hear anything in what you said that remotely indicates you're actually bi-curious, bi, or gay. This does sound like something that's on the intrusive/compulsive thought spectrum, and I would suggest seeing a therapist, since it sounds like, between that and the anxiety, there are some pretty significant barriers to a good quality of life. This should be manageable with therapy, but it is also possible you might need medication. That will be something for your therapist to determine, in cooperation with the psychiatrist.
i agree with @Chip that definitely sounds like anxiety and id recommend seeing a therapist. as a person that suffers from anxiety ive found that medication Does help me. i wish you the best in seeking out treatment if you choose to do so
