Dear--- This year, after years of denial, trying to 'fix it' you went to a forum called "Empty Closets" and said you may be gay. Someone suggested going to the mirror and saying "I am gay". Three simple words unleashed years of suppression and you immediately felt a feeling of happiness unlike anything you've ever known. And that was just the beginning. When questioning on Empty Closets, someone suggested imagining who you'd like to come home to.. you finally let yourself imagine coming home and kissing a man..... your heart started racing with excitement. Joy, happiness, intimacy, romance, love, it's all possible...it just wasnt' with who you expected. You are gay. For years you were frightened and ashamed by it, but even in the brief period you've accepted it a feeling of warmth, happiness and intimacy has blossomed inside of you. If you really allow yourself to toss aside the baggage, you realize you actually love being gay. It's not just an isolated taste, it is who you are, and that's why looking in the mirror and saying those three simple words is so powerful. It's late in life to accept this, but if you do, your life will have potential and hope. If you step forward and embrace your sexuality there will be challenges, but you have a chance for happiness and .... love. What are you waiting for?
postscript: You still have a lot of questions "Why do I look at women" "Why did I have a girlfriend' - Dont' worry it doesn't matter where you have been, it matters where you are going to. One day those questions won't matter.
@amiready I love this! These steps are not little, they are huge... damn I wish I could send a cake...
Aim, bravo what a wonderful honest letter to yourself. Saying out loud those three magic words “I am gay” opens the flood gates of emotion and self discovery. Your life as a gay man starts then what happened before was simply preamble. You have nothing to be ashamed or guilty about. Homosexuality is not a disease but rather the cure for some of us. The cure that allows us to finally live authenticity.
The liberation and exhilaration you feel when you finally come out is intoxicating to say the least. No more fear of discovery, no shame, guilt or remorse about being able to say openly that you are gay. At first I wanted to hide anything that might hint at I preferred men but as time went on and became comfortable with the idea I wanted everyone to know I was 100% gay. No excuses, no hiding, no fear just happily homosexual!
This may sound strange but this morning I just woke up with a feeling beyond just acceptance, I felt appreciative and thankful about my sexuality. It's hard to explain but it feels SO GOOD!
Yeah...good for you....empowering.... I had days I wanted to shout it to the world........it's different problems along the way......I'm fed up with dating app at the moment, people mess people about..... But everything we go through is part of our individual journeys......we just keep ploding along....
That feeling comes from finally and honestly accepting your homosexuality. The new you starts to emerge at peace with who we are.
OMG this is beautiful. Congrats & hugs to you on embracing and celebrating your true self, my gay friend.
Awesome letter...live your true self...I’m totally struggling with this!! Still trying to figure things out!
