Ole’ Mileage yet, Please, Do not pass me by

Living here in the Southeastern portion of the U.S., looking outside into the fog and slight mist as it is dark hoping and seeking more than daydreams of someone ( or more) to come from the top of the hill to be a genuine lifelong friend. A lifelong friend /or/ a few male best friends. If I do not sound so greedy. Some true and real friends in which I know takes awhile to make but, in which I fervently desire to have in my life.
Even would like to have some female friends, too!
Ever since a few months before my mother passed away, I’ve had been longing for years and years for some great friends and a couple best friends.
Where I can also love, hangout, regularly correspond, share things or be uncomfortably transparent with and support ( not financially) besides them doing this for me.
Have had a lot of acquaintance type friendships along with both so-called friends and relatives whom left me after I finally accepted myself as a gay man a few years ago. Resulting in me feeling even more alienated, overlooked, in another form of isolation and reclusiveness. I was not out as I was hiding due to the fact that I was afraid of being disowned and homeless, for over 37 years. Was even afraid other kinds of bullying would be like what I had experienced for over 9 1/2 years ( in grade school, Junior High and High School) and in church as well as within my family.
Even went to conversion therapy in this ministry for over 40 weeks that was not helpful, too costly, brainwashed me ( or being mislead a lot ) and damaging me. Leaving me with no support and made friends disappear faster than evaporation.
Hurt me yet, i’d survived and took awhile to move forth again. Although I still longed for support and friendships besides one day, perhaps even love.
Came here on this site to find at least a few friends and a best friend. As I am doing my best to look for some friendships closer to where I live but, I may have to continue to find some outside this state.
Will be glad to even get some messages on here besides making newfound friends.
My apologies, for being nervous on here.
Am a real male in my early 50’s and hoping
that things will change and next year will be better in a more positive way!
Hugs!

 

Happy New Year! Thank You, for taking the time to respond back to me!
Highly agree with you about what you’d wrote and said to me that men need men for simple companionship. Been told by family, church and so-called former friends that I didn’t need this in my life for numerous years. Got tired of them all saying this to me as I’d grown up. Mostly I learned that they were so wrong.
Hungered for great friends and for male friendships my age or ones whom were slightly younger than me.
And it is very difficult to maintaining this and even looking out my windows to dream such a thing as nothing develops.
Although there’s hope!
You would be a great friend for others to have and I would also like to have, over time. I need to bond with someone such as you in my life!
Loneliness does really hurt. Hoping this will be a thing of the past, over time! With even baby steps!
Would you like to have another great friend?

 

Lone wolf, if you desire, how about us becoming friends?

 

Good morning to you, over yonder! There’s always yodeling yet, if there’s gusty winds or breezes that come and go along with jets a flying, it will be interrupted. Bummer! There are flares yet, we need to squint a lot to see them. Shucks, darn sakes alive!
There’s smoke signals yet, factories and people burning Autumn leaves will intervene in a way we weren’t longing for. Phooey gooey chocolate chip cookie
So, we could peck at keys on our devices as we mimic chickadees eat there delicate fancy food. This will be suffice for awhile besides being alright with ancient gnomes whom also like to chat-up-a-storm.
If you do not mind till we become more than better acquainted. Alright?
I’ll be willing to correspond on here somehow. As these new days of this new year that is given to each of us that will fade ever so delicately into this new chapter and into History.

 

Nick, within the past few years, i’ve tried numerous apps /or/ sites for finding only gay, bisexual and even straight male friends . Have had quite a few experiences that, over time, unfolded into negative experiences and high hopes that shattered into granulated and finely grated pieces. All which was unforeseen. Either ask for money to keep our friendship ( or more) a thriving and well or if I could send them any female from here ; do not get me wrong, I refused in giving them half of a penny. And I firmly believe any lady of any age absolutely should not be treated this way! They need to be treated with respect and love.
Several men even said that they were from here in the State I live in or live in the States and they were in Africa or other.
Some have asked me for sex. Which I did not want till after I got to know them well.
There was a couple of guys on apps that actually was females posing as a gay male. Ugh!
I reported them all to the authorities and to the site or person in charge of the apps.
Even tried a meetup group that was in this county in this state where I dwelleth and it was fun. Till recently this group folded up.
Hoped that in this college that I am attending and is my first time in college, would have a LBGTAQ group and they do not. Hope this will come into reality for others as well as this college in this conservative area before I even come close to graduating. Yet, feeling overwhelmed and an outsider makes me lost.

 

Would love to be friends with you Nickw and Lonewolf as well as others on here whom also like to become lifelong friends with me! Shoot, if anyone would like I am willing to even adopt you as my extended family! If this sounds good.

 

Patience is like a subject that is required even though it is learned after umpteenth years that would make one younger. Without purchasing the men’s anti-wrinkle cream being thought about or getting on sale.
A partner would be delightful. Peaking around for one along of remembering where I happen to misplace my megaphone to proclaim , “ I am looking!”
(As I now whisper to a few, “ Anyone single? “ I am ready)
Have been wanting to be myself all the while of learning to Love myself more since I came out.
More than thrilled that I’ve found E.C. ! To this I like to even add the ones whom have responded back to me and made me happier than I have been! Invite you all and future ones to also to not hesitate to write more to me as I would love for our friendship to grow more day to day! Plus, years to come! Hugs and Smiles!

 

Thank You also for the others whom have recently wrote!

 

Catching my breath, loving our cat/ my great friend, glancing out some sheer curtains into the woods beyond a couple of my neighbor’s homes, enjoying some cold draft coffee, breaking down at times for the last two hours as I long to surround myself with a friend to communicate with in some form. Or, even three or four ( if possible).
Although here where I pace none are yet found where I live I’ll look to here on E.C. . To surround myself with besides lean on. If you all do not mind.
Not trying to paint anyone the incorrect painting of me to chase anyone of you away. Nor, abstract myself in any way as I am down, lonely and scared. As I do not want to loose any of you or any support in any way, shape or form.
Hard to shred or grate finely the loneliness I am experiencing. Not even desiring to be redundant either to any of you. Loneliness and depression both needs to stop lingering around us and me and drown in a black hole in space, for good!
Want to have friends, get to know them gradually, support them, regularly surround myself with them, communicate well with , love plus care for them, laugh/ smile/ bask in their presence and cry together including hanging out at times, if possible.
Going back to college for my second quarter scares me, too as a couple of courses are freaking me out due to not being in school for over 30 years.
These things are freaking me out as I quiver and pace as I stare out in space. Daydreaming of ones whom I hope on here whom have wrote ( along with others whom later will) will one day meet as we become great friends besides hanging out. Love to get to know you better. Please and Thank You! Huge hugs!