ever since I got this relationship, my life has gone completely 180 the other way. before I used to hate myself, just play video games all day and never do anything, was too afraid to leave my own house, had no friends and no confidence and no reason to live or care about myself. then that fateful day when we met on reddit of all places. 6 months later, my confidence is so much higher, my self image so much more positive AND and this is thus the "saved my life" bit, I recently started exercising, because I dont want to look chubby and lazy infront of him it completely encouraged doing exercise. now im doing almost an hour (im working up to it) of intense cycling, and then pushups (as many as I can manage without hurting myself). I feel freaking amazing, its undone a knot in my stomach and made it feel emptier like a stomach should be, my legs dont hurt anymore and my arms feel free, and im starting to feel...something in my chest, a stirring that isnt just empty numbness again. I for the first time feel my soul waking up, im seriously starting to feel happiness again for the first time in over 7 years of numbness and hopelessness. for the first time in my life I can imagine where ill be in 5 years, I can see a light at the end of the tunnel, im starting to feel like im actually alive again and not just existing. screw having to learn to feel happy on your own first, this is fixing me, I CAN BE FIXED, for the first time in my life I honestly believe that I can be happy and be better and fixed.for the first time in 7 years I dont want to die anymore, im starting to actually care about myself.
Incredible,...... exercise can be very powerful, I run now and feel better after a run.....your post made me smile, it brings hope to others on the forum, it's very empowering....sounds like you might also be falling in love.....
What an inspirational post! Super happy that you're feeling such a big change in your life. May you continue to grow and improve each day
haha no I thought that'd come off too strongly XD maybe I should though. I dont know what im doing tbh its first relationship ive ever had also thanks to everyone for their awesome replies : )