This is the first time I've expressed myself as a gay man (outside of my head, that is), so if it's a little awkward please forgive me. The short version: I'm male, sexually attracted to men, in my latter 50's, married (to a woman), one adult child, and so far in the closet I'm three buildings down the block. I feel an almost overwhelming need to talk to someone about the contradictions of my life so far. It's taken a lot of effort for me to risk posting anonymously on a forum like this. What am I looking for here? Folks I can talk to. I have always been so terrified of being outed I've never risked it, even with friends who are gay. I've spent so long feeling one way and living another, and I'm just so tired of being afraid. I hope all that doesn't put everyone off. Thanks, and I look forward to exploring EC.
Welcome to EC. No one will be put off here by what you wrote. Know you are not alone and many others here are in a similar place. I’m a little younger than you but 2 kids, a wife of 20 years, and no one knows I’m bi except a therapist. I hope you find some help here or whereever else you decide to turn for advice. If you haven’t already, check out the LBGT Later in Life forum.
Welcome, I think the next step for you would be counselling or therapy. You could openly express your fears, concerns and what you wish for your future. I came out this year in my 40s now have ex wife . You will get plenty support here on the forum. Warm regards Rade
I can strongly connect with your need to talk to someone, and I too never have never written about myself as gay until I joined this forum, even voice it in my head was tantalising for me. I can't compare between our very different stages (I'm so much younger than you) and I don't think I can offer you any advice,I hope you will find someone to talk to. Sorry for the ramble
It's Rade again, though im Jon, don't need to hide anymore...I'm more than happy to talk with you...I won't have all the answers but as a guy who left his wife at 43 and has 3 kids, I've been through alot this year....your in yr later 50s I think so I think we would get along to talk things through... warm regards ...Jon
Welcome. I am older than you, so don't feel out of place. I came here for the same reason - to hopefully talk with others about my situation in a safe environment. Hope you enjoy the site.
