Hey guys, Warning: contains some explicit stuff... This might be something covered in other people's posts so I hope I'm not wasting anyone's time, but basically I'm wondering if I really am gay or just keen on penises... please don't laugh, I know it sounds funny. I have always loved having and playing with my penis... I can even remember this as a young kid. As a teen, masturbating was just about my fav thing after I discovered it lol. But I think it went deeper. I loved catching a glimpse of another guy's penis whenever I could eg change rooms. I wished I could see other guys naked, partly I think I was just obsessing a bit over body image as I was a fat kid and wanted the pecs and abs of a fit guy. I also love seeing pics of male genitalia, seeing men in porn masturbating etc. Without wanting to get all heavy... recently I had a breakdown so I'm kind of looking a my life. I've never experimented with a guy, so perhaps that's where to start... so that it's not just all in my head. Anyone else had any experience with this?
It could just be your way of convincing yourself you aren’t gay, you just have a fetish. I think that is somewhat common. I suppose it could be a fetish as well. For years I’ve had the urge to give guys oral. I use to tell myself that I was turned on by the taboo aspect of it. I was, but I was denying that I was also bisexual
I think to some extent all guys look at someone else's dick out of curiosity. Guys who think they are small look to see how they compare or guys who think they're big look to compare or boost they're ego. Some guys are just curious about that body part and how it can have many variations. I'd look at your other activities or attractions to try to figure out if you're gay such as do you find clothed guys attractive, are you sexually attracted to guys, do you jerk off thinking about guys or being with guys, do you desire to suck guys, etc.
Yes. I admitted it and took it back in my head many times over the years. I finally just made peace with it
To me you sound like you are attracted to males on some level. Have you imagined having sex with a guy? How does that make you feel? What about women? Do you have sexual feelings towards them?
In my teens I used to think the same, but years went by I was feeling the same always jerking off thinking about guys wondering how the feeling of having penis on my hands anyway you might be gay IDK, but if you always think about guys and if you jerk off f thinking about guys yes might be gay or bi DK =( My way to deny was thinking it was just a "fantasy" or "a phase". Good luck on your journey
The relevant question here, in terms of sexual orientation, is where are your sexual fantasies? When you masturbate (without porn), what are you thinking about? Guys? Girls? Both? That's a pretty effective pointer to where your orientation lies.
