im feeling quite vulnerable but at the same time like in peace but somehow i feeel unconfortable. i kissed someone i was very attracted to but somehow i feel sad . maybe its because its someone im not gonna see again as shes not from my city or because i loose my "straight" identity i must have had in the back of my mind but i have o many feelings at the moment its difficult to manage. any advise would help
Yep, it can be a rollercoaster. For me my first kiss with a guy was "Oh fuck, I enjoyed that a lot.....fucccck" It was one of those moments that there was no going back and all the "But what if I'm not gay" questions stopped. I was happy that I figured it out, sad that I figured it out, and stressed because I figured it out. Sucks and its amazing all at the same time. One of the best things that you can do when you think your mind is going 100 mph and you can't catch up to them is to write everything down. Literally open up a word document and start typing. Just type everything and anything that is coming to you heard as it get there. Ramble on. Just keep typing. After you feel you are done then take a breather, take a shower, go for a run etc. Then come back and read it again. Usually reading what we wrote will allow us to understand our feelings a bit easier and to create a mental map of our emotions. It just takes us to create some distance so we can see the big picture. But also, congrats on your first kiss
Exhilarating... Passionate... And just right. The guy I first kissed was super attractive as well, so it made the whole experience worthwhile. Like the first poster, it definitely put all my questions about my sexuality to rest, although it took a little longer to accept my sexuality.
Very much a "holy shit this is for me" moment, even though I didn't find him that attractive the feeling suppassed that of any of the girls I had kissed.
I loved it! I had already accepted that I’m gay so it wasn’t like “oh crap I’m gay”. It made all the doubt go away which was really nice.
I was really nervous and overthinking it, and it was my first kiss with anyone, so I actually didn’t feel the first one at all really, I was too focused on calming my nerves. The second one when I was calmer though... the “oh this is definitely for me” reaction the others described.
I had already gone through the process of coming out to myself after a long struggle, and it was the end of my first date. The date went well, and then when we kissed that was truly when the spark lit. I've kissed him a few more times after that since we are still together.
Well my first time kissing a man was very nice and exciting, but when I got home afterwards, my siblings told me off for staying out late without calling, and that killed off any sexiness I was feeling form the experience and put me off wanting to see the man again. I soon learned why a lot of gay men leave home early as possible. Living in a crowded house at a time when you're wanting to explore your sexuality is a horrible situation to be in!
It was something i'd wanted to do for a long time and had struggled to find someone to do it with. I was relieved it was over and done with, so I could finally say I had kissed a girl. It isn't the happy feelings like a lot of people above have posted. I think it was because I wasn't kissing someone special, I was just kissing her because she was female. I also felt alot of anxiety and negative feelings go away after I had done it.
Honestly? Horny. Haha. I was madly infatuated with this boy... it would have been a cute teenage romance, had it prospered. Alas, it did not; he just decided that he didn't want to be attached at 16.