Running around in circles about my sexuality, need help

so how are you doing Brain Train? Calmer?

 

BrainTrai. You are my twin brother. I wake up at 5 and can lay there easily for an hour dwelling on sex life or whatever. I purchased an alpha stim machine and love. My psychologist tried it in her office and I loved it. Every time I went in she let me use it during our session. Sometimes the other life is me dating a guy. Sometimes it me living on my own but with no anxiety. Yeah I am a little bit of a mess right now

 

It's like I'm less quick to fall into a particular pattern of thinking, which I think gives me the opportunity to be more methodical. It's really subtle, and I don't necessarily think its a bad thing.

There really isn't therapy right now. I had done a fair amount of CBT prior to starting the medication, and there was some more in the months after I started, just to add a couple more tools to the mental toolbox. It sounds really similar to what you're doing in therapy right now. It was very self-directed and goal-oriented, there was lots of homework--making lists, writing, etc. There was also lots of mindfulness/meditation, which I continued for a while (and should probably do more often--its hard, though, when you're feeling good and life is busy). Adding the medication just made it easier for me to use some of the things I had learned in therapy.

 

Hello,

I can completely understand where you are coming from, im still trying to figure myself out too.. it started for me when i was 13-14.. i had a massive crush on my best friend and i suppressed those feelings and i actually regret that.. my best friend ironically told me a week before i moved out of state he had a crush on me too and because i was scared of change.. scared of everything i never acted on that.. and i regret it.. regret it every single day because im still in love with him.. and i recently found him again on facebook.. and all the old feelings came rushing back like a Tsunami hitting a village.. and it brought all those fears an anxiety with it.. no one knows about it.. ive told no one not until a few days ago i
had talked to my friend an he was supportive, the downside to all this is my massive crush confuses the hell out of me.. he sadly got into drugs bad and in an out of jail in those 10 years we had been seperated and i finally confessed too him over FB about how i truly felt and now hes avoiding me he didn't block me.. he didn't delete me off facebook.. we are still "Friends" so i dont know if hes just mad at me or the drugs..

 

Hi there. First of all, I'm sorry you're having a tough time. I know what it's like to have fear and racing thoughts take over. It can feel like you've lost control and that's hard to handle for anyone. Secondly, I can only imagine how much worse it must be to have heard that from your father. I myself would have been incredibly hurt, and I'm sure a lot of your fear stems from that. No one wants to even contemplate being rejected by their own father. But the important thing to remember is no matter how he feels, it is your life, and if he can't accept that it's his loss. Now as for your feelings I think everything you have described is normal. When you first discover new feelings it can take over all your mental space. It's totally normal to feel this way because your brain is trying to adjust to all this new information. So be gentle with yourself. Allow yourself to have the feelings, and don't fight them because it will only make you feel panicky. But also don't overthink them. Let them come, but resist the urge to analyze them. It's also normal for preferences to switch. You may be into men more right now and it could change back. Or you might just now experience more predominate desire towards men. It's all okay.