So I came out as genderqueer about a year ago and then came out as trans shortly after. I do experience dysphoria. Its often very difficult and I wish I was born in a boys body instead of in girls. Sometimes though I don't always experience dysphoria. Ill still feel somewhat uncomfortable in my body but it's not very noticeable. However, when this does happen I do still like being referred to as a boy because I know for sure that I am definitely not a girl. Sometimes I get overwhelmed by thinking of medically transitioning because I have people in my life who sometimes question whether I really am trans. When other people doubt me I start to doubt myself even though I know that I do experience dysphoria and love being referred to as he. When I start to doubt myself I have thoughts like, "what if their right", or "what if I'm subconsciously doing this all for attention". The sad thing is is that I used to beg t not be transgender even though I know I am. I know I am a boy but I'm scared of medically transitioning and realizing I made a mistake later on.I'm trying to take everything day by day but its hard.
You don't have to do any medical transitioning if you don't want to. Some trans people choose not to get any surgeries, or even go on hormones, and that doesn't make them any less trans. Don't forget, you can always decide to medically transition if you feel like it's right for you! Transitioning has no designated checkpoints, and choosing not to take part in popularized "milestones" of transitioning does not make you any less trans.
