Lately I’ve been feeling the routine is strong and it is not helping me being better. I always do the same and I need to do the same everyday or I feel lost and it worries me. And adding some obsessive behaviors to that, doesn’t help. When I brush my teeth, it needs to be in a certain way (the two lights in the bathroom on, brush, rinse my mouth, make certain move with the toothbrush, leave it, rinse my mouth three more times looking at the mirror and one more time looking at the sink). Every day I shower very late because of the same reason, I need to shower before bed or I won’t feel good, I take the pills in certain order, etc. I really want to start doing things differently but it’s hard.