Like the title says. I feel like an outsider in my own house. I am the fifth wheel, because everyone else are straight couples. The 3 of us girls all work together and now that my car is fixed I drive to work by myself and they leave work 30 mins before I do just because they can. The one's boyfriend drives them to and from work. That is fine on days when I have doctors appointments but honestly it is a waste of gas. A few times when I come home no one is there. They go to the park or something and I have no idea. So I make myself something to eat and go to bed. I have been trying to keep up with the dishes but I am trying to recover from having thyroid cancer and having to have my thyroid removed. This has caused me to be in a great deal of pain. I waited 3 days to see if anyone would do the dishes but they weren't done and even though it hurt I did them. Then on Sunday when I was with my grandma after taking her to church the one put a status about hating that she has to spend her whole Sunday cleaning. I have a 3 bedroom house that is only 900 sqaure feet. I am hurting every day and was even in n the hospital due to the pain the one day. I can only do so much. Money is an issue too. They were struggling where they were living and I have a big heart. It is frustrating because I set rent super cheap to help them out. $180 a person a month. I get that two of them cover car parts equaling 200 and I grateful but that doesn't stop the calls. Last month I asked for no money because 2 had just moved in and the one had a miscarriage so I respected that she missed 2 weeks of work. However, in order to cover rent for that month I had to do a pay day loan. But no other bills got paid. I'm not getting that $200 towards bills. I am still getting the remaining 320 from them and it is goinging purely towards rent. I said something about it tonight because I am stressed about the calls and that upset everyone. I didn't mean to offend anyone but I'm the one who is stressing and getting the calls. They have been buying groceries so I shouldnt be upset it is just hard because I had to have my internet and tv get shut off to get by because I'm behind on everything because I was barely working because I was so sick. I don't know if I am being fair to be frustrated or if I am being over baring or what. I am just hurting and overwhelmed
