so, last week one of my friends passed away. he was only 31 and just celebrated his birthday recently. I just can't believe he's gone and I catch myself waiting for him. I try to kill the pain away, but the memories always come back. and so does the pain. it painfully reminds me that he will never come back. I loved him. on my own, weird way. he was one of the most important people in my life. I'm mad at the world for taking him away, and at myself for not being able to save him. I miss him so much I could just leave everything behind to get him back :'( please, tell me how to deal with this pain. please. it's killing me.
I'm sorry for your loss but as the saying goes - time heals. Feeling pain when you lost someone who you really cared about is a normal process and unfortunately there is nothing to speed it up. You need to go trough the pain so you can get over your loss. My advice would be to remain strong and remember that your friend wouldn't want to see you cry. If you feel really bad I don't think talking about it with someone close to you would be a bad idea. Sometimes you just need to talk it out.
Mahidevran.....I am so sorry for your loss. Please do not try to handle this trauma by yourself. When I was 19 my boyfriend of two years passed away. I was devastated and it lead to many years of deepening depression and finally a near attempt at taking my own life. Find someone who you can talk to...a friend, family member or a counselor/therapist. There are times when we just do not have the ability to deal with what life has thrown at us. Then we need to find help...there is no shame in saying I need help. I said that here on empty closets in December 2014 and people responded that very night, saving me from myself. Find that help...meanwhile let us be your rock. Lean on us and we will be here for you. .....David
Old post, but sorry for your loss. I'm going through it right now. I hope time as helped you a bit. Being by yourself and mourning is completely normal, but make sure to take care of yourself, talk about your emotions when needed and get out with friends every once and a while
thanks everyone <3 *sends hugs* a month has passed and I still can't believe he's gone forever. I still catch myself waiting for a message from him. I still think about him, I wonder how is he doing, how is his day going etc... and then I recall his death. it quite hurts :c I guess I kind of had feelings for him. I can’t explain it in any other way :x we both were a bit shy, with me being more brave anyway, but now it has no meaning. I had no chance to tell him about it anyway
must be so awful for you right now always think positively. do what makes you happy visit places you went together, and turn negatives into positives always!!