Am I gay or Bi?

It sounds like you're bisexual to me. Some people think you have to be attracted the same amount to both genders the same amount, all the time. Many bi people have a preference for guys, or girls. That can also change. Of course, later in life that could change, just as labels can. Also, you shouldn't feel like you have to be forced into labels, but I get that sexuality can cause some stress.

 

I'd say you're bi. Bisexuals have these swings and it can be hourly, daily, weekly, monthly, etc. It's something we have to realize and accept. Some bi's do have preferences rather than an equal attraction to both. I think since you said you deny it then you probably hate girls b/c you're trying to deny it. It's kind of interesting that you said you should stop denying it and just be gay. I think you might just have a preference for guys. IDK if you've told your gf or not so that might be some of the frustration too.

 

I totally understand where you’re coming from, it’s nice to realise we’re not the only ones and this is what being bisexual is like. I’ve always known I was bi deep down. At school I fancied girls and wanted to go out with them but fantasied about boys. Coming on here has helped me realise there’s other people that feel the same. Have you told your girlfriend your hi?

 

I don't have a gf but will tell either my gf or bf when the time comes.