Somewhere between bi and gay?

I thought that might be the case with me...I had occasionally experimented with guys for years, even pre-marriage, but it never answered anything...particularly since I never let my emotions get involved.
In recent years however, I have let myself become ever more emotionally involved with men. And you know what? In many ways it feels no different to emotional involvement with women for me. The sex is a bit better, that's it. No great revelation or uncovering of some previously hidden subconscious truth. Not sure if I'm relieved or disappointed to be honest. But it's fine. I've just come to terms with the realization that I'm not gay, but I am more gay than straight