When did you realized it?

I'm in a similar situation to yours Himo. I may have no boyfriend to give an answer to, but once I tell myself and the world I'm lesbian, there's no coming back.

I haven't had these early realizations either.

Best of luck.

 

A lesbian on television here in Belgium last Sunday who was married with a man, had children etc. also said she didn't know until she fell in love with another woman (I think at the age of 40) and that looking back the only sign she ever had was that she thought naked women were beautiful. So not a lot of signs either.

For me it would have been impossible to come to terms with my sexual orientation so quickly Himo. I went through the stages of grief and it took a lot of time (still does actually, still not totally there yet). So if you need more time too, perhaps try to explain this to your GF.

 

Dude it feels so good to know I am not alone, I am pretty much exactly in the same boat as you. When I told My wife (except that difference) the feelings I had she was very sad of course as was I. But she supported my me unconditionally and for that I am grateful. The thought of separation scared me the most, loosing everything I had come to love about her and the life that we built. At the end of the day I am still very confused as to what I am, because I can’t really say there was an early epiphany or a strong feeling of I am gay. Which is why I am hopeful therapy will help me navigate those feelings, is it purely a sexual thing or is it more?

So for what it’s worth I feel your pain on a very personal level and if you want to chat more I will be around.

 

Same, I think the scary part about therapy is exactly that NO decent therapist can tell me how I feel only help guide the process of finding myself. It really is about our decisions. Another part where I differ from you is I have never been with a guy, so while therapy (I start shortly) may be all well and good I think my only course of action is to start dating men and see what happens.

We met when we were 25 and she was 29. We were coworkers and our personalities just clicked I felt very safe and comfortable around her. She is so amazing.

Best of luck!

 

See that was my first introduction, with TG porn. It’s a fetish for straight men generally so I hid behind that thinking nothing of it which led to me identifying as bisexual, but I noticed I was mainly paying attention to their genitalia and yeah, wanting to bottom and stuff like that. Gay porn never really did it for me but then again porn isn’t the best indicator but when I watched straight porn, it generally was along the lines of “bbc” or “big ” So I definitely consider myself mostly gay at this point.

 

Probably shouldn’t be worried if you just watching it. But if you’re fantasizing and finding yourself on backpage or you feel like you’re consuming more than you are comfortable with, it’s worth analyzing.

 

I put the pieces together when I was about 11 but looking back now I can see things that happened in my childhood that are very telling of the fact I am gay. I just didn't know what being gay meant when I was that age so there wasn't a way for me to put a word to what I was experiencing.

 

The first time I realized I wasn't straight was sometime in 7th grade. I realized I wasn't cis until sometime in late 10th grade. I wasn't completely sure of my sexuality until sometime last year.