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A (not so sudden) realisation

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  1. DCSC

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    Hello everyone!

    I've never done anything like this before but feel that perhaps now is the time to seek some advice and support, so here's my story...

    I a 29 year old woman, I've been in a 6 year relationship with a straight guy that I do truly love. Since my late teens I guess there's always been something there in relation to finding women attractive. Over the years I've had serious crushes but I've never acted on them and have never been with a woman.

    Recently (I don't know why) it's ALL I ever think about...I feel a bit trapped and a part of me wants to break free and almost start a new life, to get away from everything and experience new sides to my sexuality.

    I was just wondering what others in my place have experienced and if there is any advice that you feel is worth sharing.

    Thanks for reading :slight_smile:
     
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    Hi! Croeso i Empty Closets.

    Don't worry, there's nothing wrong in feeling an attraction to the same sex. I'm sure you'll find help here. :slight_smile: Have you tried talking to your partner about this?
     
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    Diolch! Thanks!

    I've not told anyone about how I feel, I'm unsure how my partner would take it but he is exceptionally understanding with most other things so I don't think me coming out would be the main issue.

    The main issue I think would be the serious possibility of breaking up with him...I know this would break his heart, but the more I think about how I feel and where I am in my life the less he appears in my future plans.

    Maybe it's because I'm approaching 30, but it's as though I need to make the most of it now before it's too late? I don't know for sure, I just wish I was more in tune with myself and my feelings 10+ years ago!
     
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    Okay, just because you have feelings for women it doesn't mean that you've lost interest in men. You said earlier that you love him a lot. There is a chance that you could be bi. You can't change the past, so it's not worth pondering too much about what could have been.
     
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    I agree with your point of maybe being bi, and I do love my partner a lot...the problem is I don't think I'm IN love with him anymore. He means a lot to me but I just don't see how I can tell him how I feel and for our relationship to carry on.

    And yes, you're right...no point dwelling on what could have been!
     
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    You're going to have to tell him at some point, as hard as it may seem.
     
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    Welcome to EC!
     
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    Thanks!