I think I'm losing my mind. I'm gay, i don't know if i could be trans, i hate what my family says about lgbt people and i'm sick of falling for the wrong people. All of these goes through my mind every freaking second of the day and i've lost my focus. I need to concentrate on my studies but i just can't. I'm failing and i can't stand all of this. I don't know who i can talk to about this and i just feel like drop everything. I'm just tired. Sorry for the vent.
Hi, I'm sorry to hear that you're struggling at the moment. Is there a support/counselling service at your school/college? It might helpful to share your concerns with them. They might be able to communicate with your teachers for you and find a way to support you in managing your work until you're in a better place. Do you have any friends you'd feel comfortable talking to?
Thank you guys. I actually have friends who i can talk to but i feel like I'm not able to talk about this. I'm always the funny and strong one that tries to consolate everybody but that never shares anything. Whenever I get the chance to blurt everything out i chicken out and make a stupid joke. I also got an appointment with a counselor but i didn't go. I don't know what's wrong with me.
Could you arrange to meet up with one friend and tell them in advance that you need to talk to them? If they know you want to share something, it might be easier for you. It might be worth making another appointment, just share your reservations with them at the beginning. Make the first appointment more about finding out about the process rather than sharing anything, so there's less pressure on you.
