Hi there! I'm Bluebird, and it's lovely to meet you all! I am 19 years old and from Canada. I am not completely certain of my sexuality, but lately I have been feeling like lesbian is better suited to me than bi or pansexuality! I have been questioning myself for a few years now and it was only relatively recently that I admitted to myself there is very much a part of me that is attracted to girls. It has been a rocky path so far, but I'm hoping it gets easier. I live in a small town with just my dad. Unfortunately, both my dad and my town are pretty homophobic. This has impacted my coming out process. I haven't come out to any people I know in person, but I've told a couple online friends my sexuality. I would love to move to some place more accepting in the future! At the moment I am taking a year off of school to work. I am fairly certain I would like to go to school for Early Childhood Education, I'm just not sure where I want to go yet. I'm also a bit nervous about college since I had a pretty miserable time in high school! I guess we just have to see how it works out. I am saving up this year, partially for college but also because I would love to visit Ireland this summer! I don't want to ramble on for too long so hopefully this is enough. I would love to make some new friends, especially friends in the LGBTQ+ community since I don't have any around me! Thank you for taking the time to read about me.
Hi there, and welcome to the community. EC is a great place to make some new friends, and find acceptance. You have already completed the hardest steps of them all: you have come to your self. That's pretty awesome. I'm sorry to hear though that you live in a homophobic environment; hopefully you will be able to find some support. Once you have enrolled in a college, it might offer you opportunities to come out, and join different kinds of support and social groups. Welcome aboard, and enjoy your visits.
Thank you so much for your reply! I'm still tackling the process of coming out to myself (I struggle with internalized homophobia) but I feel like I'm a lot farther than I was a few years ago, at the very least! I'm really happy to have found a community like this, I think it will be nice to talk to other people who understand what's going on. That's also a really good point about college! I just have to take the step and enroll in a college that's not my hometown. I'm a really cautious/anxious person so even though my town is homophobic it's still home, you know? Going to college here would be the safe option, although I don't know if I'll be very happy with that decision. Ah. I can put off deciding for a while longer at least!
You sound like a very nice person Blubird. Take your time in figuring out your sexuality and coming out. I'm really glad you're taking a year off to figure things out before making a big step. BTW, Early Childhood Education is a great career prospect. Good luck.
