I always been very straight since as a kid when i was 10 i tried to get a girl to sleep with me. i used to grab my aunts butt and enjoy it. thru my life ive liked alot of girls in high school but they never liked me back im 20 and still single. 2 years ago i was madly in love with this girl but due to certain situations we couldn't be i used to write songs about her and really wish she was mine. i never doubted my sexuality suddenly this year a though in my mind came like what if im gay because i couldnt get hard to one girl.Although i never had that problem before. ive always watched straight porn and have had many straight sex encounters which i liked,. but the i am gay thoughts evolved into sexual images of men in my head. which caused me alot of anxiety sometimes i couldnt breathe and i felt cringy then later on it moved to thought about a guy being cute like every guy i saw on the street sexual thought came in my mind like want to **** him or anything like that. again lots of panic and anxiety. but i never got hard of these thoughts or felt happy. i tried to accept it but didnt feel like me felt like it wasnt me at the same time i met this other girl and the sex was great. the anxity is now gone but tehe thoughts are still there, ive watched gay porn couple times dont like it dont get hard and i dont have the urge to watch it again. was at this party and was dancing with a girl it turned me quite on and felt good. but these fdays i have no emotions its like im empty so im doubting am i gay and do i really want men even tho ive never had one or got turned on by one or is this just on my mind. sorry for my bad english pls help me out
Take it easy on yourself man, I don't think you have an attraction to men whatsoever ( or if its there its very very faint). Judging from what you're saying your primary attraction is towards girls. From not getting an erection a girl one time means absolutely nothing when you compare to many other times that you've spoken about. You have sex with woman, enjoy doing it, and look forward to acting again. You are straight
It doesn't sound like you are really connecting with the thoughts that you have been having about other guys and they only seem to be coming to the surface after experiencing some arousal problems with one girl. If you look at it logically, there could be a number of legitimate reasons why that occurred. When we are anxious about something it's very easy to become trapped in a pattern of overthinking and analysing and the more it happens the worse it becomes, but on the basis of what you wrote here, there really is very little for you to be anxious about. Is it possible that you have a little bit of curiosity about other guys? Yes, it is. Is it something to worry about? No, not at all. In actual fact, it's perfectly normal and healthy. The only thing that makes you different to the majority is your decision to talk about it here and ruminate over it. I honestly think there is a long way to go before you could even begin to assume you are gay.
Thanks alot its just the thoughts occure so much and ive tried doing all kinds of things to accpt it i watch gay porn and i all i just dont really enjoy it or be happy with it. like my best freind ive known for years suddenly these thoughts come around with them too and its getting too much for me sometimes but its not like i go home thinking about them or long to be with a man or see em im just kinda tired and im talking to some girls we talk dirty alot and it makes me hard but like i dont feel emotional connection although i havent seen her yet it kinda stresses me. could it be a sign im gay
