I am a lesbian. I am very confused about my gender identity. I am questioning if I am genderqueer, bigender, transmasculine or something else. I always consider myself a tomboy in my personality. But I unfortunately my tomboyness was suppressed by my family as a kid. My mom and older sister would force me to wear makeup and dresses. When I was in high school my mom made me wear skinny jeans because they were popular. But they're very ucomfortable to me. As a kid whenever we would visit my boy cousins I would play video games with them and in general act aggressive. My older sister told me to stop acting like a boy. I've been thinking of all these experiences. It makes me really angry and upset. I feel like I was robbed of my true self. For about one or two years now. I have felt very uncomfortable about my breasts. I feel like there too big and I really really want them to be smaller. They bother me so much. For a few years now I have wanted a pixie haircut and want to wear guys clothing. But mom won't allow it, she keeps saying No. I just want to know who I am and be able to express myself the way I want to. It's frustrating. Any advice would be appreciated?
hi, i kind of get what youre going through. im not sure how old you are, but if you still live with your family then for your hair you could see if you could get your bangs cut kinda jagged and beanies are always good for tucking back hair. if you are uncomfortable about your breasts then if you have a pair of tights to wear under dresses if you cut the legs off and make a hole in the dick area it works like a training bra and im pretty sure its safe and affordable.sweatshirts can also hide unwanted areas.if you feel more comfortable like that then if you have the resources then maybe you should invest in a binder.bring your shoulders forward also helps, but it can be uncomfortable. since you cant seemingly start testosterone (i cant either)try to lower your voice by talking from your stomach if you want. also girls walk with their feet almost touching. try to widen your stride and walk with your feet farther apart. i was so frustrated for so long because i did not know why i felt the way i did. if you have parents that are kinda chill maybe you can bring this up. i really hope this helps and that everything works out. good luck
Oh hello again... we're having 2 different conversations on 2 different pages.. and no need to thank.. i feel you bro.. do you have any preferred pronouns?
I am only using he/him pronouns on the Internet. My family is against it. Also I feel happy hearing you say dude and bro .
