After my first relationship with a girl, this year, I realized I haven't felt this kind of sexual attraction for a man before, and I never fantasized about guys either. Although I've deeply fallen in love with men, it was kind of platonic, I didn't like it when it went beyond kissing. I find myself feeling repulsed by the thought of my male ex's in bed, even though we've stayed friends with two of them. I'm looking back thinking I don't want to try to enjoy sex with a man ever again. And I only see myself dating a woman, at least in the near future. I'm wondering if it's because I haven't figured out how straight sex works, or because I'm really gay. I feel like I'm in a turning point. I don't feel stressed or think about it often, I just found it a bit weird how my feelings change/become more clear. Time will probably show. I'm wondering if anyone can relate.
