What are you thinking?

Oh no! Are you going to be okay? I hope it doesn't grow too much out of control

 

I'm thinking life is actually full of shit for every 1 good thing 10 bad things happen. But your just suppose to walk through everything smiling because if you don't your the moody, scary, unlikable person that everyone talks about behind. Then one day someone comes to you and asks if your gay because she always hears people talking about it. What a load of shit. Done venting my shit sorry for the language even though it's not that bad.

 

There are two ways to respond...

 

Yes and no are the ways to respond

 

Mine were a bit more explicit, but yeah; same thing.

You could keep them guessing, too: who is asking?

 

Want to now something else, I talk big and always have a smile on my face and don't know if anyone's knows this but people always ask why are you smiling but when you have a depressed look on your face no one will ask why and they'll laugh about it, you know how I know this because I friends with the people who laugh when they see people like that. It's sick I know.

 

I didn't answer because if I did in my school it get to everyone in less than an hour and I don't want that because anytime until I leave if I speak up about something someone will use my sexuality against me. People already use the the way people dress and act to mock them.

The person asking was a girl I get along with I wouldn't say we are proper friends we just started talking about shows we watch and now we talk in a couple lessons.

 

Are you still in high school?

Funny, here people always tell you to smile. Maybe a difference between the US and other countries...

 

I'm in the equivalent to high school in the uk which is secondary school I'm in the last year which I think is junior in high school we are ages like 15-16.

 

Just cleaned the shit out of my new apartment. Really don't feel like going over to clean the old one now...

 

I really don't wanna do my homework because I just have no motivation to do it but I really have to stop putting it off.

 

College football!!!

 

Thanks! Yeah I hope firefighters can contain it soon. And i'm hoping for a miracle rain on that area

 

I survived my first week, but I feel like I'm making a terrible mistake trying to take Organic chem and automata theory in the same semester D:

 

Can't sleep cuz my left chestarea hurts again-
at least not as intense as 3 days ago...

 

Had to google what that was sounds painful

 

Yeah, like something hitting or stabing my rib cage 3 days ago.
Homeworks are sometimes such a dragdown.

 

Hail to the conquering highlighters:

 

I'm too tired. It's only 11:00, and I can barely even think. I wrote another comment on this website, and it took me a while because I kept zoning out and couldn't figure out how to word it.

 

I just discovered that another one of my friends in my hometown has lost their battle with addiction. Many of the people that I went to school with have dies of drug overdoses or impaired driving. There are more that are currently in prison for drug charges. It is really sad. This is the reality throughout a lot of Ohio now. There is a reason that it is called ground zero for drug addiction. I've heard that a lot of people in the state have had a very similar experience to me. I hope that this changes sometimes soon, but I know that it will take a long time.