Late in lifers, I came across this one by accident.. If you've seen/read this, ignore, maybe. So, big news, I am 15 again! Instructions: click on this and scroll down to the pic with 2 white doves in Venice. Read the rest. (BTW you Can read the entire thing too http://effingdykes.blogspot.com/2017/08/a-queerem-theorem.html?m=1
So, if I count away all the years I was married and didn't allow myself the thought of being involved with a woman and take away all the time as a teenager before I realized who I was, that makes me... about 18.
That makes sense. Now, at my 2nd round at 15 (lol), I'm staring at ladies' butts all the time and like drooling over them. And all I can think of is sex. haha When I was 15 I had my 1st kiss with a guy and I remember it feeling very methodical. And my friends were fawning over guys and I was just like MEH and was trying so hard to like someone (while denying all my girl crushes).
Wait me too. This is helpful. Whenever I get frustrated again about my lack of dating I'll just think I'm 15 and chill out.
I'm about 16. Makes sense. I've read several posts on EC about this phenomenon of a second puberty - in so many words. Several people describe this kind of awakened sex drive, which I have totally experienced. (Thank God ) But, it's more than that, right!? We are now learning how to date and flirt with women. It's kind of funny. To know we are a bunch of grown women smiling nervously at other grown women, giving our best lines. I've been trying my hand at being comfortable smiling at more women. It's awkward. I'm awkward.
Haha! Yes to the awkwardness. I can't believe the things I'm doing and saying. It's like an out of body experience. The first time I said something really corny to V, it was when I told her she looked much younger than she is. She took my arm and sort of put her head on my shoulder and told me that I was her "best friend now". I said, "keep me around, and I'll flatter you all the time." She laughed and flipped her hair adorably, and I literally thought, "WTF?! Who AM I?! What the F am I doing?!" Haha...
Yep, applies to us gay guys, too. I'm in a 63-year old body but inside there are days when my boyfriend and I both feel like we're teenagers again. We do the responsible adult thing at our jobs, more or less acting our calendar ages, but when we're together we play like we're kids again. It's a good thing.
If you are still closeted and never really plan on coming out do you get to be forever young? #lookingonthebrightside
RJay, you sound very endearing and I know exactly what you mean. With my trigger crush I completely shocked myself with the things I would do or say. Listen, I literally would send her quotes from books and poems I found inspiring. Wtf!?
This is such a cute little article/thing. Unfortunately, I'm not a late in lifer since I came out at age 14. But if I still choose to play this kind of game, that might make me closer to a 50 year old in gay terms since I pretty much lost interest in my sexuality and sex in general (in the same way older people eventually lose interest in sex/relationships since it becomes routine and uninteresting). Later in lifers sometimes get the better deal....lol
If I did the math right I'd be 13. This feels like a comforting reality check. Like, "Yeah you're in your 30's, but give yourself a break." When I was younger I thought it would be wiser to date when I was older and more mature. Now I'm thinking I've missed a lot of learning experiences to make me more mature in relationships. At the same time, I have better resources now and the knowledge I'd rather date women (I'm bi, but... "women").
