Hello everyone, it's been awhile since I last posted here, but the reason is I'm posting is the same as last time, I'm confused. I'll won't stall, I just want some answers and advice. I still don't get aroused by same sex fantasies, I've been testing more and more recently. However, today, two things happened. 1.When watching a video game cutscene, the villain picked up a guy by his head, the victim groaned in pain, and I felt a flush in my face and a flush in my chest, don't know if it's positive or negative. 2. Read an unexpected comment about guys fucking, don't if it was the act or the subject, but the same thing happened as number 1. I can't recall if I had a feeling in my crotch or not. Sexual fantasies with girls quickly arouse me as usual, that hasn't changed. Thoughts anyone?
Also, when I read titles about "My boyfriend this" or "Husband" or "Losing virginity to a man" I get a weird wave of something. I don't know if this is desire or just plain old anxiety. Ocd is not making this any clearer.
Talk to a therapist. But other than that, please describe the physical sensation. Is it like your insides are being brushed by something warm and furry, and strange contracting sensation, both, or a wave of the feeling you get when you see something really creepy like skin crawling?
I don't really know how to describe it other than a "flush." I'm sorry if I'm making this harder to solve.
If it helps with anything, most of my attempts of same sex fantasies include me sometimes having immense trouble focusing on them. While rarely, I get slightly aroused by their sexual nature, for the most par,t when I think of myself having sex with another man, I become bored out of my own skull, my mind drifting to sexual fantasies about women, or even drifting to thinking about the latest trends. Don't know if this makes this any clearer.
You sound like you have hocd.Go to google and search it.For further informations you can either private message me or go to psychforums.
I know what the term "hocd" is, and I know it's only a certain way ocd manifests, not it's own standalone condition. Psyche forums was the first website I went to when my ocd started acting up, *way* before I ever posted here.
I don't know what a flush is... I have never felt something like that... But it does not sound like you are actually attracted to same-sex people.