Confused about sexuality (Lesbian)

Ahh.. Finally a forum site I can find some help on!

So, I've identified as a lesbian for 3+ years, only just a few weeks ago have I started to doubt it.
I realized that I'm not 100% attracted to girls anymore, I'm mostly attracted to girls, but very, very rarely I have attraction for a guy.
But the thing is, I'm not attracted to a certain guy per-say, I'm attracted to the thought of sex with a guy. Like, I am 99% attracted to females, I can see myself with a female, and I can see myself having sex with a female much more better than I can with a guy, although, sometimes I get excited at the fact of being penetrated and ejaculated into (embarrassing much? whoopsie.) but I don't envision a certain guy doing that to me. I don't visualize a girl either, just kind of.. nothing.
I'm kind of confused about this, because I don't know if it's just a kink or if my sexuality is changing, because I get just as excited (actually, more excited) visioning a female with an ejaculating strap-on having sex with me.

I really don't know what my sexuality really is anymore, I feel like I'm a lesbian with a little leeway, but I really don't think I'm bisexual, nor straight. I think I'm a lesbian with an ejaculating strap-on kink but I feel like a fake lesbian for having that kink, so if I continued to call myself a lesbian, would that cause trouble?

 

Looking at other posts of people like me it seems I might just have a penis fetish instead of being bisexual or anything but lesbian, so I think that's who I am. I'd hate to close this thread so early, so I'll leave it open to discuss.

 

No problem! I do agree it sounds more like a kink (because my main attraction is women with the slightest attraction which I have established to be a kink). Although it really does help to know that I'm not crazy haha

 

I think I need help with this again haha.
Everyone is telling me I'm bisexual but I feel like that's not who I am, I feel like it's a kink but I feel like a fake lesbian for it. Because, I'm not necessarily attracted to a male penis, because I'd much rather it be a strap-on instead.

 

Thank you, although thinking about it, I'm not really turned off at the fact that I could be with a guy- It's more of the feeling that I wouldn't desire it, but if he was nice and we shared a lot of interests I would be with him. However, I do not desire sex or a relationship with a male, it's more of like I would do it not to feel lonely.
Although, when i think about being with a woman, everything is checked off on the list. Sexual attraction, emotional attraction, sexual desire, etc. are all checked as a definite yes. Basically, I desire sex with females only.
To get more in-depth here, whenever I read stories about straight sex or watch straight sex, I don't envision myself with the male. I just think about what it would feel like. So, when I get turned on from watching straight sex it's not the actual male penis, it's the penetration, which leads me to believe I just like penetration since it can easily be recreated with a strap-on.
However, I do visualize being penetrated by a penis, although it is not necessarily a male penis, I guess you could say? I more envision myself being penetrated by a dildo than would be an actual penis, since there is no male involved, but no female either. Whenever I masturbate, I envision straight sex because it's easier for me to envision (NOT because I want to be with a male). It's easier for me to envision straight sex penetration than dildo penetration because I just find it hard to envision lesbian sex and the material of a dildo, while it's easier to just imagine a penis haha. Although, I don't envision a male doing this to me, and I also imagine it to just be dildo. A realistic dildo I guess you could say, that's not controlled by anyone, but if it's controlled by anyone, I try to vision a female.
God, I really don't understand how I can say this haha.
I don't even know what's going on with myself anymore. Am I a lesbian with a kink? I feel really weird about this.

I don't know if I'm a bisexual or not, but I have a strange feeling of being called bisexual. It just.. Really makes me feel anxious. I feel like I'm automatically classifying myself as straight for some reason. I feel like I'm a homoflexible, but I really would like to still call myself a homoflexible lesbian. I just feel like.. Lesbians are really nice people, a really nice community, and just a lot of things I want to be a part of. I feel like crying and throwing up at the thought of being called bisexual for some reason, and I feel like throwing up at being called a lesbian too, because either this is a phase or a kink and it makes me feel like a fake lesbian. I don't really know what I am anymore.

 

I am a virgin actually; although I don't have a man or woman I can trust that would try it with me (It seems very weird to go up to someone and go "Wanna bang so I can figure out my sexuality?" lol) Although, if I were given the chance to have sex with a man or a woman, I would choose the woman by far, so that might be a good enough answer.

That's really comforting to hear; I take it that you feel the same way I do?

 

Thank you both so much, I really appreciate your support and help!
One last thing before I go; I should continue to identify as a lesbian, correct?