Tomorrow a family friend is having a big 4th of July thing. It's a regular thing, and I haven't gone the last two years nor was I planning on going this year but several of my children specifically asked me to come. The crowd will almost exclusively be people from my old church. I'm not looking forward to hours and hours of pretending I'm still straight and a practicing Catholic, let alone the wierdness of being there and being divorced. But I'm not out to anyone at this thing, and I haven't yet worked out coming out to my ex and my kids. My ex asked me to keep the fact that I'm not Catholic secret from the kids for now and I agreed. Anyone else faking it for the 4th?
You know, I feel like you can be honest with your kids, at least about your religion, they're your kids. But I don't know the details of your situation, so what the hell do I know? Anyway, I'm really only dealing with people who know. I'm not out to my family, but I'm spending it with my friends.
This year it's just my mom & I, which works out for me because she knows I'm a lesbian, and she's pretty much okay with it and working towards accepting it. So I lucked out this year. Otherwise, I generally have to play it straight with my extended family when we get together. I usually have to fake it every day anyways, so I've gotten used to it lol.
Oh yeah. I used to spend a LOT of time with the church, and I have a lot of friends that are still there, and I can't imagine telling any of them I'm gay or that I don't believe anymore. The event sounds kinda miserable. Especially that someone specifically told you to pretend. That'd piss me off.
I don't really want to even think about playing it straight anymore, I'm past that point because I'm just like if anyone is a homophobe I'm not hanging out with them ever.
Well, my ex decided he didn't want to go to the hassle of taking me, so I have no way to get there, so I'm not going. If it wasn't for the fact that the kids specifically asked me and I said yes because I didn't see why he couldn't give me a ride (we have kind of a weird situation going on) I'd be glad to get out of it. I don't have to fake it for five hours. But the kids did ask me, so now I'm depressed. I need a car.
